haven’t been blogging as much lately and it will most likely continue that way. i dont love it anymore. ive got nothing to write and i hate taking pictures in my fucking room. im trying to get back into it but theres nothing to say. its all negative and nobody wants to read that so im staying away for a bit..

wasn’t the same at all. quite happy the saints won cause i was rooting for them however watching it late at night wasn’t ideal. food wasn’t the same and neither was the crowd. missed dallas a lot last night. wanted to be anywhere in the states. wanted to watch the game with people who loved the game. who would get enthusiastic, mad, and happy. all in all though good game. ecstatic new orleans won. looks like mardi gras is starting early this year!

yes i’d rather like to have a sit down conversation with my body and ask what it’s problem is. i finally got rid of my cough after months and months. then i wake up this morning and my throat is swollen, i keep coughing up stuff, and everything just hurts. not again. why me why me why me. why do I always get sick? stupid body!

im jealous of emmelie. two weeks in india. forget the culture and whatnot the warmth!! its cold here still and snowed yesterday. used to love it, but after mexico i got over it. i want warmth again. i want to lay out and tan!

i don’t know what it is about this song. whatever it is it makes me feel right. if im mad, it lets me let go of my frustration. if im upset, it makes me feel better. if im happy, it makes me even happier.

tuesday during the day i decided to get some culture in! second museum here in London in just a couple of weeks! think im doing quite well with my new resolution. cant be wasting time in a city like London, so much too do and see! next up i think is the war museum. theres an exhibition on the holocaust that id rather like to see. 65th anniversary of the liberation of auschwitz this month i believe!

so today and yesterday i have done nothing. layed around. watched tons of movies. took a short trip to tescos. but other than that, nothing! loves it although i dont plan on doing it again tomorrow! going to watch Simon play hockey in the morning, then probably going out with jules and daphne, and daphne’s friend from paris! should be a good time

anyone else as obsessed with the iPad as i am? i want, i want, i want!!

going insane.

I Got Ice In My Veins, Blood In My Eyes. Hate In My Heart, Love In My Mind. I’ve Seen Night’s Full Of Pain, Days Of The Same.You Keep The Sunshine, Save Me The Rain. I Search But Never Find, Hurt But Never Cry. I Work And Forever Try, But I’m Cursed So Never Mind. And Its Worse But Better Times, Seem Further And Beyond. The Tops Gets Higher, The More That I Climb. The Spot Gets Smaller, And I Get Bigger. Trying To Get In Where I Fit In, No Room. Cause All This Bullshit Just Made Me Strong. So I Pick The World Up And I’ma Drop It On Your Fuckin Head. Bitch I’ma Pick The World Up And Drop In On Your Fuckin Head. And I Can Die Now Rebirth. Hop Up In My Space Ship And Leave Earth,Im Gone. I Know What They Don’t Want To Tell You. Just Hope Your Heaven Sent And Your Hell Proof. I, I, Walk Up In The World And Cut The Lights Off and Confidence Is Just A Stain That Can’t Wipe Off. My Word Is My Pride but Wisdom Is Bleak And Thats A Word From The Wise. Serve To Survive and When It Got Too Heavy I Put My Bird In To Socks. So I Could Pick The World Up And I’ma Drop It On Your Fuckin Head. Im Gone, Im Gone. It hurts, but I never show this pain you’ll never know. If only you could see just how lonely and how cold and frostbit I’ve become, my back’s against the wall. When push come to shove, I just stand up and scream “Fuck ‘em all”. Man, it feels like these walls are closing in this roof is caving in, oops, time to raise it then your days are numbered like pagers and my book of rhymes, got ‘em cookin’, boy. This crooked mind of mine got ‘em all shook and scared to look in my eyes. i stole that fuckin’ clock I took the time and I Came up from behind And pretty much snuck up And butt-fucked this game up. Better be careful when you bring my name up. Fuck this fame, that ain’t what I came to claim but the game ain’t gonna be the same on the day that I leave it. but I swear one way or another I’ma make these fuckin’ haters believe it. I swear to God, won’t spare the rod. I’m a man of my word, so your fuckin’ heads better nod Or I’ma fuck around in this bitch and roast everybody. Sleep on me, that pillow is where your head’ll lie, permanently, bitch, it’s beddy-bye. My head is swole, my confidence is up. This stage is my pedestal i’m unstoppable, incredible hulk. You’re trapped in my medicine ball. I could run circles around you so fast your fuckin’ head’ll spin, dog. I split your cabbage and your lettuce and olives. I’ll fuckin’ Pick The World Up And I’ma Drop It On Your Fuckin Head