Missing everything

i feel so alone. that’s what it is. that’s why i was upset this morning as well. i feel alone. i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my friends. i miss it all. im missing out. my sister gets to go to dallas and see my mamma and i know how much fun and whatnot they’ll have and im jealous. im jealous of the people finished for the summer. im jealous of my friends in sweden just graduating and celebrating everything. friends in dallas laying out by the pool doing NOTHING, not a care in the world. why can’t i be there? instead im stuck here with two weeks left, with a lot of work to do and no motivation. none what so ever. i want to get out. i might actually just go to the park alone. get some air, a breather.