Left unsaid

i need to vent a bit, and there’s nobody who will understand so dearest blog readers, don’t get too confused.

i don’t understand how you can be so damn naive. don’t you realize that it’s not a dance on flowers? it’s not all its cracked up to be. i thought you listened when i told you, but apparently not. you’re making a massive mistake, but it’s not my place to step in. i want you to know that you will never be anything unless you grow up. make something of yourself. you can’t rely on others to support you always. i thought i could, but then i realized i didn’t even want to anymore. it’s so much better being independent. i just want you to understand, but you don’t. i don’t know if you ever will. i’m willing to be there for you the day that you do though, for now.. not so interested.

you’ve hurt me so much that instead of being upset, im angry. i don’t care for you anymore. the little respect i used to have for you is gone. i don’t want to be around you, i don’t want to hear about you, i just would rather you not be involved in my life. unfortunately that’s not really possible. so this time, i’ll be the mature one. i’ll forget what you’ve said. i’ll forget how much i hate you. how a woman like you can tear down a girl like me is unfathomable, but congrats you’ve done it. maybe now you’ll understand that you didn’t do those things for me, you did them because you felt inadequate.

i tried. i’ve tried. i’m still trying. but you know what? i finally give up. i tried so hard to like you. i tried to be friendly, nice, and courteous. but today i realized i’ve tired of trying. i’m done. so here’s my middle finger and a massive fuck you. i didn’t believe it was possible to hate someone but i fucking despise you. and the fact that you don’t have the guts to try when i’m around, but when i’m not there it suits you. so the next time my name slips off your tongue dear, i hope you choke on it.