You said you'd be there for me
In times of trouble when I need you and I'm down
And likewise you need friendship
It's from my side pure love but I see lately things have been changing
You have goals to achieve
But the roads you take are broad are heartless
That wants you make another way
You throw stones
Can you see that I am human I am breathing
But you don't give a damn
Can you feel my heart is beating
Can you see the pain you're causing
Can you feel my heart is beating
Can you see the pain you're causing
Blood blood blood...blood is rushing
And now the world is asleep
How will you ever wake her up when she is deep in her dreams, wishing
And yet so many die
And still we think that it is all about us
It's all about you
You sold your soul to the evil and the lust
And the passion and the money and you
See the same ones die, people hunger for decades
Suffer under civilized armedrobbers, modern slaveholders
Evaded, eliminated, erased, interrogated
Our tradition, our love for our fellow countrymen,
Our property, our resources - our pride
Can you feel my heart beating
No no no...you don't

you said things. you hurt me. ill never tell you. but you did. and it still hurts, it always will hurt. sometimes girls are a bit too sensitive, but im sure if i wouldve said what you did you would feel the same.

dear lord i am so unbelievably excited to see this movie. i will be there on friday afternoon no matter what. hopefully someone wont mind joining me as well. its going to be great though, and if its not i just might cry.

went to the bookstore yesterday while we were downtown. figured it would be nice to get some new books since i left the one i was reading in sweden last. emps if you wouldnt mind bringing it to paris? anyways im already half way through one of the books and i am super stoked to read alice in wonderland before the movie comes out in 2 days. got a lot of reading to do!

my god. i have never been so in love with a brand in my life. tracksuit tops, check. tracksuit bottoms, check. wallet, check. purses, check. jewelry, check. clothes, check. all thats missing is shoes, undies, and perfume. hehe. yes i am a juicy couture girl. dragged simon along to the store here in london and i was in heaven. its in a beautiful area and the store itself is amazing as well. also i found an amazing purse, if i had the money i wouldve pounced!

juicy couture purse, only problem? money money money! if i were a rich girl..

or so i wish it was! went to oxford street today to hand out cv’s and look for a new pair of jeans. and i found them! i mean of course i couldve found much better and payed more for them but honestly i hate shopping for jeans and they worked for me so i bought them. got them for a good price as well! cheap monday at urban outfitters, only 45 pounds! normally my jeans end up in the 100-200’s! so we’ll see if one of my friends here can sew them up for me if not ill get them tailored and itll cost a bit more but so worth it!

thats exactly what i feel like doing. im over it. over over over so fucking over it. the course im doing at uni is complete fucking useless. a waste of time and money and energy. its driving me mad and making me want to go back to what i used to do. not because im under pressure like i used to be, its not challenging in the ways i want it to be. its complete bullshit. i fucking did a colorwheel for a full day at uni. like is this really what im wasting my fucking energy on? im so done. i dont want to get out of bed in the mornings anymore. i dont want to even go to school. i dont want to be in this situation. how the hell did i get here? as it stands at the moment i will fail, and to be honest i dont know if i can be bothered to give a shit and do something about it. ill take the fail and walk away from it and never look back. if might hurt me in the future applying to other schools but its hurts even more now. makes me so upset. i just want to get away from it. let it be over with. i cant fucking paint or draw. i didnt sign up for art, photography, or film. so my course can go fuck itself in the ass.

back in london now after an uneventful trip. flight went fast and easy!