Went to the gym after I finished my philosophy essay. Think I really needed it, feel like I’m getting back on track finally!

Out tonight in central doing a pub crawl with Simons hockey mates for Shaun’s birthday. Apparently I’m the only girl here, so I’m taking it easy and sitting every other pub out because we all know I cannot handle that much alcohol btw, not everyone seems to like my “floral” playsuit but I’m well happy with it!

Had a stroll up the high street, and found this beautiful little playsuit! Decided to try it on, and to my surprise it actually fit! Cost me less than 20£ so it got to come home with me as well. Can’t wait to wear it out.

Went to the Littleton arms yesterday and had a haloumi cous-cous salad. It’s one of my favorites and just can’t go wrong!

Simon got back to London yesterday so I met him at kings cross. Him and Jules had a pub lunch and then I headed back home, wore an old dress (?) from Monki with you guessed it, my Jeffrey Campbell heels.

Went to the gym after my lectures today, got nice and sweaty. I was starving when I got home so I ate a feast.. Should probably start cutting down my portions a wee bit.

I’ve been in lectures for 6 hours today. My head hurts, i’m hungry, and i’m tired. I don’t want to go to the gym, i know i should, but i don’t want to. I know i’ll regret not going and i’ll feel guilty and bad about it, but i seriously do not know if i have the energy for it today.

“Your 20’s are your ‘selfish’ years. It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Tinker with shit, travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground.”

This quote makes me feel like an absolute failure. Here i am, 20. One year left at university, hopefully have an internship for the summer as well as taking summer courses and then doing it all over again until i manage to get a job when i graduate.

It’s what i want, but it’s not what i want. Does that make any sense? I know it is what i’m meant to do, and it’s the right thing to do. However, who wouldn’t want to travel the world? Lie on a beach. Shop all day and party all night. I just want to be free of everything, but the problem is you need money no matter what you do and i’m to liable for what i leave behind.

You always want what you can’t have.

I can’t pay attention in class today, I feel absolutely rubbish. My head hurts like never before and I’m so tired. Going to go to the gym later on and work out before hanging out in the sauna for a while to relax.

Today Meher and I had lunch in the brasserie after turning in our advertising report. I was starving, and almost finished the pasta although it wasn’t too die for.