went to our student union bar wednesday night. can’t say it was one of the better nights i’ve had there. it made me feel really uncomfortable and lost. like i don’t know where i belong anymore. i don’t think this is it for me. at the same time moving out so soon would be a huge step. id need a job and whatnot first. aja, either way.. it was an ‘auction night’. they were bidding out cheerleaders and basketball players and it was just trashy (to say the least). some of the ‘cheerleaders’ (if you can even call them that) were running around in shorts.. no not shorts boyshorts. the kind of ’shorts’ i wear as underwear. the kind nobody sees. this girl had half of her ass hanging out. like youve got it flaunt it whatever, but honestly i dont really need to see it. what pisses me off the most though is girls like them who flirt around, show off their goods, fucking hell. your leading the guys on just by standing their. all you want is attention but then if you get more you complain. lay in the bed youve made sweetheart. then on the bus home this little kid, probably like 10 years old, starting getting into it with an older girl, and then another guy joined in, and then another girl, and then another guy. it just got to the point where if things were to escalate id be stuck in a very unlucky place, so i told simon i was uncomfortable and we moved downstairs on the bus. i dont want to put up with this ghetto shit anymore. i dont care if you think your some kind of hard ass, gangster, or drug dealer. truth is in my eyes your a failure. i may not be a ‘hard working’ person myself at the moment but at least im trying. at least ive got goals and a future ahead of me.

went out to my favorite place here in dublin tonight, cafe en seine. had a lovely chat with my pappa but didn’t want to wear ourselves out for tomorrow, lady gaga concert! although it’s funny how hard it was to leave london, i love that city and i love being there. as well as the people i’ve got there <3 but nothing beats the apartment my dad’s got here in dublin, especially not seven sisters hahaha.

L’i love it. i absolutely love it. chilling at emmelie’s apartment with her boyfriend, robert, and his friend! oh and plus ISABELLA!!!

out for a lovely sushi dinner with the parents at blue fish. then back to pick up my booze and a car then im off for a night of partying with old friends hope you all enjoy your new years eve, and if not.. enjoy starting over in 2010!!

does everyone have their new years eve outfit planned? i’ve got no clue what to wear! had a dress in mind but its waay to cold now. so i think i might just go out in something ive already got. not very festive but saving money!!

and im barely alive. have had the worst hangover today. thanks to the open bar last night and whatnot. passed out by the pool and i now kind of look like a lobster. YAY, not. plus dallas is freezing. someone take me on vacation again?

went out to dinner tonight since we didn’t really have time to do anything today. chilled by the pool then came back to our suite for a shower and to get ready. i think its hilarious though, every time you sit down they ask you if you’d like something to drink. water, wine, margarita, daiquiri, tequila. like id really want a shot of tequila with my dinner. haha, i love it. i wore a shirt that my mom gave me, along with a skirt from Monki. nothing special. cant be bothered!

oh also wore the necklace my daddy bought me for christmas!

did my eyes up pretty dark for tonight. going to a really nice club called 24 that joe promotes for simon’s birthday. wearing my black dress from XXI i might put pictures up later of my outfit since im not dressed yet! are the eyes too dark or do they work?

holy cow. we did pub golf last night and it’s like a set amount of sips you have for each drink in each pub. did nine pubs and let’s just say i didn’t quite last until the end! had an amazing time though. met an absolutely adorable girl that simon knows from back home. she was lovely and really enjoyed having her as my partner. looked like a little boy in my golfer gear but still, it was so worth it! unfortunately i forgot to charge my camera so it died pretty early on. ill upload the pictures sometime this weekend for you guys.

going out tonight again for simon’s birthday this time. doing pub golf. quite a bit of drinking so we’ll see how i do!!