class is cancelled. i’m bored and i want to get out of my flat. how come i’m the only one who doesn’t actually have any assignments for once?  shouldn’t be complaining

i know i should be studying, cleaning, relaxing.. but that’s no fun..

i’ll have a look over my business law papers in a bit, but in the meantime i’m making a video blog.

i’m bored out of my mind. think i’m about to get my shit together and go home. there’s no point in me being at simon’s when he’s playing video games.

plus it’s dirty, smelly, and not to mention COLD.

i bet the house will be like this by the end of the year

haven’t had the most exciting day today, really boring actually! hopefully tonight will be better even though i have no interest whatsoever in eating a curry.. any recommendations for other indian food that is good?

will most likely just go for dinner and then come back from yarm and go to sleep. have to get up at 5 tomorrow morning.. not excited.

well that title doesn’t make me feel like a stay at home wife at all…

i’ve basically been sat watching.. yep you guessed it.. animal planet and mtv all day, and just now did some dishes as the dishwasher at the boy’s house is broken.

how perfect is this picture for this post?

it’s nice to not have a care in the world and to have time to recover from my cold, but i couldn’t do this for a longer period of time. i’d go crazy (well more crazy than i am now).

sat at home, alone, on a saturday night. eating candy like the fatty i am, i’m thinking about crawling into bed with a nice movie or a couple of episodes of weeds.

had to redo my nails earlier as the bath i took at simon’s house, which lasted 2 hours, destroyed the grey for some reason?

does anybody actually still use twitter? i seem to forget and then sign on when i’m out and about or reaaaally bored.

for me it’s just boring when you get no feedback. no new followers. not a lot of my friends use it either so it’s a bit hard.

am i the only one feeling this way?

follow me! p1nksaint @ twitter

in my flat now just hanging around. no tv or anything like that so it’s a bit empty i guess, but i’ve got my internet now, so i’m set!

simon and i got the receipe from my mother to make swedish meatballs tonight, this could go horribly wrong so we’ll see..

it’s been yet another one of those days. so sick of having them. so sick of dealing with them.

woke up and wasn’t unhappy just irritable. things all day have just gotten me at my core. eating away my patience like a tasty dessert. haven’t been happy. just needed a cuddle or something.

don’t know why it happens, it just does. tonight’s one of them nights as well. back hurts. head hurts. can’t sleep. don’t wanna be awake. don’t wanna be stuck with a shitty internet connection with nothing to do.

why?

i’ve held it in. and i’ve held it in long enough. i’m not going to say who or any details like that because it’s stupid. i’m not putting anyone in situations that aren’t needed. however i do feel i need to express my feelings. the childishness that goes on in my life is up to me. i can act like a child but it’s because im enjoying life like a child. i don’t do it to hurt other’s or make other’s lives difficult. people i thought were close to me betrayed me. i know they probably don’t realize it but i’m really hurt. im frustrated and im angry. im keeping it inside. i’ve got nowhere to turn to. how do i express my feelings without hurting others? it’s just some people go beyond the line. some things are personal. some things should not be read or tampered with. it’s private. and im sure as hell you wouldn’t like it if i went and snooked around in your private things. i used to like certain people but in the last couple of months it’s just shown how different we are. i will not stay in touch. i do not want them in my life. i do not need them. im tired of the same old same old. i don’t think certain people will ever mature. ever make a life for themselves.

going out. to take my mind off of things. to get rid of the mind ghosts. to be social. to feel something again.