done. finished. finito. färdig. it’s finally fucking over. the elation and happiness running through my veins is intense. wish somebody could be with me to celebrate the fact that i did it. i made it through this year. i’ve made it yet again. i’ve finished. granted i may not pass but who the fuck cares? i’m done. i never have to set foot on london metropolitan university campus ever again if i don’t want to. I’m no longer forced to deal with the nonsense they call an education. it’s ridiculous, but i feel like jumping up and down and cry and just sit here and smile to myself, because no matter how shit or how horrible this year has been it doesn’t matter anymore. i’m done. next year i get to start over. new university. new people, new friends. new subject. new place to live. yet the same amazing city. so fuck you london met and all the shit you brought with you cause i’m over you!

it’s funny how somethings never change. the feelings that wont ever go away. the resentment and hatred you can have for someone, and never let it go. the thought of a person can make your blood boil. and being around them just all around annoys you. some people aren’t meant to get along though. some of us just can’t be friends. and sometimes its sad but when i think about it, do i need this person in my life? will they actually change anything? and at the end of the day the answer will always be no. i do not need that bullshit in my life. no i will never like you, and no we will never be friends.

at first i was productive and didn’t feel that bad being here all day. now, not so much. im bored and i want out. i need to get some groceries before i go to my trial shift tonight and it’s gunna be a tight fit. but whatever, 5 more weeks of this bullshit university and im out forever! back to work now…

so unfair. i wish i was a guy. they dont have to go through any of the bullshit us girls do. im in so much pain that i feel like im seconds away from throwing up and then crawling into the fetal position. not fun. my headache still hasnt gone away and ive already watched the second to last episode of house, and i dont have the last one yet. obviously the medicine im taking isnt strong enough, anybody care to give me some hydrocodine?!?!? seriously, i mean im young and all but this pain is enough for me to never want to have babies. just sterilize me now. anyways maybe when i can think straight and not just concentrate on the pain im in ill actually post something worth reading. sorry guys.