my god. i have never been so in love with a brand in my life. tracksuit tops, check. tracksuit bottoms, check. wallet, check. purses, check. jewelry, check. clothes, check. all thats missing is shoes, undies, and perfume. hehe. yes i am a juicy couture girl. dragged simon along to the store here in london and i was in heaven. its in a beautiful area and the store itself is amazing as well. also i found an amazing purse, if i had the money i wouldve pounced!

or so i wish it was! went to oxford street today to hand out cv’s and look for a new pair of jeans. and i found them! i mean of course i couldve found much better and payed more for them but honestly i hate shopping for jeans and they worked for me so i bought them. got them for a good price as well! cheap monday at urban outfitters, only 45 pounds! normally my jeans end up in the 100-200’s! so we’ll see if one of my friends here can sew them up for me if not ill get them tailored and itll cost a bit more but so worth it!

leaving Dublin today. dads moving to sweden in a couple of weeks so who knows when ill be back here again! i love this city and ill miss it. specially the apartment here, the bed, the view, the people, the pubs and clubs, everything! i’ve had a lovely weekend but it’s sadly back to real life now.. wearing monki skirt today!

i want to go to therapy again. i dont know if this is a step backwards or what it is. maybe its the fact that prozac doesnt pick me up anymore when im down. maybe its the fact that i have gained weight again and im just too lazy to do anything about it. i dont want to rely on working out too much either because i know where that will end. i cant be bothered with this depression bullshit anymore. i dont want to be fucking unhappy. ive got so much to be happy about yet im sitting here at 2 am on a tuesday night crying because of what? no fucking clue. nothing! so sick of myself. i cant sleep because im so damn irritated. i know i have to get up for uni tomorrow as well. irritated. irritated. upset. sad. mad. pissed off. bipolar.

going to get my hair cut real quick then taylor and ito are coming to get me and then we’re going to northpark mall! buying some things for my sister and then probably just having a look around! gotta enjoy the shopping malls here while i still can :/

got to wear my new jacket today out in the snow here in dallas! absolutely insane that its snowing.

we ended up going to the galleria instead! i got a lovely down jacket from tommy hilfiger. love love love it! wearing it today since it might snow, in texas!! crazy stuff. then after i went out with ito. went to blaynes apartment, then andrew and chris’ house, then d’s house. then home! didn’t even realize after a while what time it was. so good to be back with friends t

going out to the boardwalk now! then dinner over there most likely. think it’ll be an early night for the parents, they were a bit tired this morning! (i wasnt… cough cough). coach espadrilles, second hand skirt from beyond retro, and a shirt from urban outfitters!

going out tonight for a very untraditional Christmas dinner! after all we are in mexico arnt we? then i think we’re off to senor frogs! very americanized place here thats known for its crazy parties i guess. should be a good time! lets see if i get up for the gym tomorrow morning! god knows i need it. wearing a dress from Bik Bok and shoes from bakers! love the warmth!

if i move to Sweden next year i will spoil myself with one of these jackets. although it might be a kids one, since the size fits me better and its cheaper