i try so hard. i really do. but at the end of the day what makes you think that i want to be in your world? what makes your world so much better than mine?

do you all of the sudden think your better than me now?

thing is i went out tonight because my boyfriend keeps telling me im being unsocial. he hates posh clubbing. so why would he expect me to like it?

i go to university with a load of posh kids and posh clubbing is their ‘scene’.

why would my boyfriend expect me to all of the sudden love posh clubbing when he hates it? i dont understand. but tonight i made the effort.

i went out there i showed my face. and i hated every minute of it.

i know some girls boyfriends were unfaithful, and couldnt handle the immaturity. but the thing is im happy with who i am, im happy in my relationship. so why would i need to stand in a crowded room, showing off my ‘goodies’ to find a guy. it’s pathetic.

every time i go out i regret it, and tonight was no exception. so have a lovely summer, i will not be joining you and i will not be missed. it’s a mutual feeling, bitch.

simon took me out for dinner. we went to the wetherspoons as baker street. not too expensive in other words

so happy i’ve got such a nice guy that knows automatically when i’m not feeling 100% and makes sure that i’m back to happy in less than 60 seconds. couldn’t ask for more.

had a caesar salad, not the best, but edible! simon had a lovely burger with.. dare i say it?.. chips! yummy.

enjoyed chatting over a glass of wine. he’s off to pick up one of his better mates at waterloo and then i’m off back to wetherspoons in an hour or so to meet people for drinks.. and who knows maybe some clubbing? ajaj daddy wouldn’t approve, haha!

off to anna’s for predrinks and then movida!

wearing a top and skirt from h&m. cheap but adorable, no?

went to wetherspoons with simon hanna and alex for a couple of drinks. simon left after one, i guess he doesn’t understand swedish

had a couple of drinks with the girls. didn’t feel like going ‘posh clubbing’ so we went home. been sat chatting with hanna about everything. so happy she’s in london! she’s staying the night tonight, and then tomorrow i think we’re going to watch the boys play hockey!

went out last night (again i know…) but it was okay, cause simon somehow won money? and we had free entry so it was a cheap night for me! plus had to be in uni today so we took it pretty easy, unlike some. two girls the guys met when they went skiing come around and the girls came out with the guys, so there was a fair amount of us. except alex and irish stayed in so i wasn’t loving it on the way out. got there and the stupid self-adhesive bra i’ve got WOULD NOT stay on for the life of it.

i was so uncomfortable and frustrated and then simon pissed me off even more i was ready to go back home. but then we went outside for a breather and chatted it out and everything was alright again. or maybe the alcohol kicked in either way people smelled in the place and it wasn’t the best place i’ve ever been to. not to keen on going there again to be honest, although the prices were pretty good. also when i was stood at the bar a girl came up to me and asked if what i was wearing was from american apparel, shocked i said yes and then realized i recognized her! it was one of jules friends that i had met before and apparently she works at american apparel and they need people at the moment so hopefully she can put a good word in for me it would be AMAZING. got frustrated with some people on the bus on the way home cause this guy rolled a joint and lit it up right then and there. one of the girls was feeling sick so they had a go at him and night buses are never fun. always something happens.

ASOS..

bad ass dress, totally made for a night out!

i love that cute little tutu! way to make an outfit fun.

this dress is very girly and innocent with a touch of bad girl style. loves it.

cool headbands 

i just thought that was one of the most adorable wittle purses ive seen in a long time.

super cute undies!

Victorias Secret..   

i think im going to buy this bikini. its just to die for. only thing is its not really necessary right now so ill probably wait until summertime. they better still have it or ill be furious.

oh and im thinking about having my mom go buy this bra or ill order it online. love it. plus with a bra like that you can wear it and if it shows it doesnt matter. so bored of plain colored bras.