going to be out in skärgården over the weekend and will most likely NOT be on the computer. so no updates until sunday night or even monday!

glad midsommar allihopa!

so the weather out on värmdö today wasn’t spectacular, but i’m not complaining cause it didn’t rain! 

with swedish summers that’s sometimes the most to hope for!

dad and i took the boat out, drove to sandhamn, which is incredibly beautiful! had a cup of tea and enjoyed the sun. unlike on the water it’s actually warm when you sit down.

unfortunately my camera’s dead so i had to take some picture with my phone, hope theydo though.

plans kind of changed gradually as the day progressed, but that’s life!

drove to the marina, correction I drove to the marina. dropped dad and uncles girlfriend off.

they took the boat out to the cottage, i drove grandma’s car and her, and my uncle took his car.

after a little bit more than an hour and some intense searching we found the cottage!

unpacked the car and then had some coffee with the family. after a quick walk to the place where all the kids swim grandma decided she was too tired and wanted to go home.

then after laying out in the sun and reading for a bit, hanna and her dad and brother came around.

we then took the boat out for a little quick look about. my god there are some amazing houses around here!!

after planning out food and whatnot for midsummer they went home, and daddy and i had a lovely dinner out on the terrace.

so beautiful out here, i never wanna leave!

heading out in a few to drive to the marina. gunna pick up the boat and go out to the cottage.

weather forecast says there’s gunna be rain, doens’t look like it but let’s hope not!!

won’t be updating today, but i’ll try to get some pictures up later, i’ve gotten rotten bad with taking pictures lately!

Today’s been really chilled out and mellow.

Woke up around 11ish, went with my dad to lunch. Bought a couple of things we needed, including alcohol for this week at the cottage we’ve rented

Then when we got home and i was chatting on skype with Simon i started to break down. I don’t know what it is about money and things that revolve around money that really throw me out of the water. We were just chatting about nothing and i started crying. I couldn’t keep a face on, i just let myself break down.

It’s annoying showing others when I’m vulnerable, and i don’t like it, but what am i supposed to do?

Im scared and i’m worried. What if the money doesn’t last. What if i don’t find a place to live in that i’m happy with. What if, what if, what if. I hate money. I hate worrying about having it and not having it. About being able to live with it and live without it. I just don’t like it. Its too much, it gives me stomach pains and makes me want to curl into a ball and die. I can’t handle it.