i was going to continue blogging today about my trip. i was going to blog about what i’ve done today. i was going to have a good day on my own.

but it’s ruined. i’m trying to figure out what kind of emotions i’m even feeling anymore, and if it really is worth it?

why does this one thing work me up so damn much? and why do i want to walk away rather than stay..

i don’t want to leave my flat anymore, i don’t want to meet up with anybody, i don’t want to feel anything. i don’t want to be in this situation.

i hate you so much for doing this to me, OVER and over again. why can’t you just see that it’s painful? why don’t you understand that you’re being the bad guy.

every time i go through this i love you a little bit less.

just checked through my bank details and whatnot and realised that i’m broke as anything. i haven’t got any money left, i can’t even pay tuition for this term.

once back from greece (which no longer seems like a good idea) i’m going to have to get a letter from my uni stating im an enrolled student and then i’m going to have to go to the bank and get at least a 1000£ overdraft.

not liking this at all, mostly because i know this term is going to be hell on earth and because a job would be great but i don’t think i could handle it.

i hate having money problems always fucks with my mind, guess the positive thing is i’ll be skinny cause i sure as hell wont be able to splurge on food anymore!

what a disappointment. really? whats his face jacob can’t act worth shit. they changed all the vampires way too much and their make up was ridiculous. they made bella more attractive by covering her in makeup and actually doing her hair. i was actually bored during some parts. could be that i hate jacob a lot, but i was still quite disappointed. and it just ends. they missed so much from the book. oh well nothing i would recommend actually spending money to see.