im applying to different universities for next year because i am deeply disappointed in the one that im studying at now. i feel like im wasting a year on bullshit. learning to draw a line for two hours isnt what i paid for. i might as well have taken a night class in sweden and built my own portfolio, couldnt have been that hard. yet now im spending a whole year of my life on it. dont even know if this is what i want anymore. i wanna drop out and start over somewhere new. but im not going to give up yet. im gunna pull through this, no matter how much i hate it and then go harder next year at a better school. so a recommendation.. NEVER study at London Metropolitan University. none of my friends are satisfied either. its just a waste. so on the list for next year, if im lucky.. Cambridge, Oxford (both of those are a possible N O), Queen Mary University of London, University College London. 4 different engineering courses and one architecture. then i might even look into schools in sweden and the states.. why not?

im really enjoying myself. at first i thought it was stupid. why am i taking pictures and then paying to print them off for architecture?? seriously i didnt pay tuition for photography.. but i kind of get it now. its seriously like doing arts n crafts for education. loves it. although i do miss math. i wish i was doing at least some engineering parts as well! im not going out tonight and ive got to clean and do laundry so ill prbli update on here then about my weekend!

so yesterday i get this email from Richmond. theyre no longer offering the course i wanted to take, engineering of course. oh and yeah, they dont have architecture either. so im thinking shit, im screwed. however im going to start off at Richmond for the first two years (maybe?) and take the basics for a bachelors degree and some engineering then most likely transfer. who knows, i might be able to get into some schools if i actually send my grades! oh and then to sweeten the deal today i got another email i got a dean’s scholarship. 4,500 pound per year. not bad. thats like 6,600 dollars. better than nothing! so yeah, as long as my grades are above a 3.0 im good to go. so well see how this goes. oh and also cambridge is cheaper than richmond. explain that please? so im thinking if i work hard and get my grades up at richmond i can apply to cambridge and hopefully some success will come. but im not getting my hopes up.. yet.