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that’s where i want to be at the moment. my life in confusing. i want to be in so many places at once. i can’t believe i booked a ticket to sweden for just a week, really only a week? i wanna go to dallas so bad, but that’s not happening. i want to go on vacation, but that’s not happening. i just wanna be around people who i love, and that’s not happening.

i just realized that while i’ve been all caught up in my own business i forgot to write that it was ito’s birthday this past week. granted i said happy birthday to him on facebook, but how great is that? i feel horrible. i guess it’s just something that’s easier to do when you’re around the person, like if i were to go out and celebrate him. but i’ll tell you this ito, if you come here this summer we will celebrate! oh and just for the blog’s sake, happy birthday again panda bear

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ever feel like you’ve been totally replaced? and not been missed for a second? fell like you’ve been left behind in the dust without a single soul looking in the rearview mirror. nobody worried, nobody who cares. nobody who even bothers to see if you wanna join in or if your alright. we went through so much together. you helped me immensely. how could you just let it all go like this? how can you just walk away and pretend like it never happened. i miss you, i really do. at the same time though, you’ve shown me your true colors. how childish you really are. how much you care about yourself. in a way im happy im not wasting my friendship and time on you. because your truly not worth it if you treat me this way. how can you just push someone away who was there for you when you needed someone? i dont get it. sometimes i wonder if ill ever find any more true friends like the ones i’ve grown up with.