went to our student union bar wednesday night. can’t say it was one of the better nights i’ve had there. it made me feel really uncomfortable and lost. like i don’t know where i belong anymore. i don’t think this is it for me. at the same time moving out so soon would be a huge step. id need a job and whatnot first. aja, either way.. it was an ‘auction night’. they were bidding out cheerleaders and basketball players and it was just trashy (to say the least). some of the ‘cheerleaders’ (if you can even call them that) were running around in shorts.. no not shorts boyshorts. the kind of ‘shorts’ i wear as underwear. the kind nobody sees. this girl had half of her ass hanging out. like youve got it flaunt it whatever, but honestly i dont really need to see it. what pisses me off the most though is girls like them who flirt around, show off their goods, fucking hell. your leading the guys on just by standing their. all you want is attention but then if you get more you complain. lay in the bed youve made sweetheart. then on the bus home this little kid, probably like 10 years old, starting getting into it with an older girl, and then another guy joined in, and then another girl, and then another guy. it just got to the point where if things were to escalate id be stuck in a very unlucky place, so i told simon i was uncomfortable and we moved downstairs on the bus. i dont want to put up with this ghetto shit anymore. i dont care if you think your some kind of hard ass, gangster, or drug dealer. truth is in my eyes your a failure. i may not be a ‘hard working’ person myself at the moment but at least im trying. at least ive got goals and a future ahead of me.