i miss this little thing. something to wake me up in the middle of the night, someone to cuddle me, someone to make me laugh just by following me around, something to give me joy.

i’m so incredibly jealous of my parents who get to enjoy having a puppy, nothing spreads happiness like a little ball of fur.

used to love watching it when i lived in the states. the girls are gorgeous there’s no doubt about it.

looking through the pictures i found myself thinking ‘i need to get to the gym,’ ‘i need to stop eating junk food,’ ‘my thighs are too fat,’ ect ect.

then i thought again, who am i to compare myself to a super model? why should they be the ideal set for the rest of us?

they’re supposedly the ‘most gorgeous girls in the world,’ and there’s no doubt about the fact that the girls are stunning, but their bodies…? aren’t a few of them a little bit too skinny? do guys actually find them that attractive? would my boyfriend prefer a girl with legs twice the length of my upper torso?

maybe i’m being stupid.

however, at the end of the day girls should be happy with their own bodies. you can’t change genetics, but you can change the way you see yourself.

the models are only human, and seeing her bum in this picture makes me feel a little bit better about myself, as bad as that is.

i don’t know why but i ‘stumbled’ across this page and seeing the pictures of näckrosen and solna centrum i felt a little pang in my heart.

i didn’t think i missed sweden, but thinking about this summer and my family and everything i feel really lonely all of the sudden. a bit lost as to where ‘home’ really is.

good thing pappa and emmelie are coming to see me next week, good ol’ family lovin.

it’s a weird situation. i guess money is always difficult. i just have never felt so helpless. wanting something, but not wanting it at the same time. realizing how much an education is going to cost you. living expenses. realizing you’ll be paying off a loan for the rest of your life. wondering if you’ll be happy. wondering if its worth it. wondering if you’re making the right choices.

i don’t want to wonder anymore. i don’t wanna regret any decisions. i don’t wanna be unhappy.

i want it to work out.

somethings i received from American Apparel. im over the moon with happiness. i cant wait until August when i get to wear them. ill be sure to put up the pictures then thank you again American Apparel!