im so sick of thinking about this and im sure everyones sick of hearing me complain. why does everything revolve around money? and why do i never have enough? im so tired of having to ask my parents to send over money to my account, im sick of watching as the amount in my account dwindles down to merely nothing. i dont know how i’ve managed but the money was meant to last me until the end of november now isn’t even going to cover next months rent. im freaking out, im crying, im scared, im worried, i have no clue what to do. im fighting with the previous estate agents to get my deposit back with no avail. if i were to get that back then i could survive until the end of october, which is better than where im at now. i’d love to get a part time job but how the hell would i have time, between 6 modules at university im already freaking out. i never think of the external bills. internet, phone, weekly travel card, university books, this blog, summer holiday ect. i just hate looking at my account and realising that i’ve once again screwed myself over. so sick of being in this position. i just want to be self reliant again, i want cash flow. i want to work and see the benefits. i hate being a student, always poor, always relying on others to support me.

i know the summer is over but i’m still loving everything white. on my shopping list is a pair of white converse. and on the wish list.. a white iPhone, and one day a white iPad. (mom&dad.. black is okay too, so feel free to give me your phone or iPad over christmas )

trying on the things i bought today. i like everything i’ve bought. but it’s just depressing. i’ve been here 5 days and i’ve already spend 500 dollars.. more than half of my budget. grrrrr.

for those of you who don’t know, the day after Thanksgiving, Black Friday almost everything in the U.S. goes on sale. The one day of the year that i’d die to be in Dallas, mmm.. so instead i’m tempting myself online!

i’ve previously looked at this Juicy Couture bag in Selfridges here in London but let me tell you it’s about 200 dollars cheaper now and i’m dying. do i go for it, or not? i want i want i want. maybe i should just wait for Christmas.

aaaaah if i were a rich girl..

i’m a purse whore.

and this one, well it’s not equal to the hermes, but it’s damn near.

and it is so much more beautiful than this picture makes it out to be. if i were a rich girl..

juicy couture purse, only problem? money money money! if i were a rich girl..

if i move to Sweden next year i will spoil myself with one of these jackets. although it might be a kids one, since the size fits me better and its cheaper

I’d so get these leggings from American Apparel. I’d also buy another pair like my normal black ones, absolutely love them. worth the money!!

lovely things they have around christmas time every year. i really like their charm bracelets as well.

plus i found the coolest ear buds ever! pretty much cheaper than the ones from apple and they’re pink. i like. might have to buy a pair when im in dallas, if theres any left!

also the cutest little pen case for school! am i a freak or what?