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holding on, trying to be somebody, but it won’t be long before you need somebody.  i don’t remember who i am, all i know is that i was reaching for the stars. forgiveness, asking for forgiveness…

excuse me my friend, i think i might have hit my head, cause i don’t remember who i am. i’m holding on, trying to be somebody.  forgiveness, asking for forgiveness…

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With everything happening today, you don’t know whether you’re coming or going but you think that you’re on your way. Life lined up on the mirror don’t blow it.

Look at me when I’m talking to you. You looking at me but I’m looking through you.

I see the blood in your eyes
I see the love in disguise
I see the pain hidden in your pride
I see you’re not satisfied
…and I don’t see nobody else

I see myself, I’m looking at the mirror on the wall, here we are again.

Through my rise and fall, you’ve been my only friend. You told me that they can understand the girl I am, so why are we here talking to each other again?

I see the truth in your lies, I see nobody by your side but I’m with you when you’re all alone and you correct me when I’m looking wrong.
I see that guilt beneath the shame, i see your soul through your window pane. I see the scars that remain, I see you.

Looking at me now I can see my past. I see the change, I see the message and no message coulda been any clearer.
So I’m starting with the girl in the mirror on the wall.

some say i’ll be better without you but they don’t know you like I do…..or at least the sides I thought I knew.

it drags on as I lose my mind. reminded by things I find, like notes you’ve left behind.

wake me up, wake me up when all is done, i won’t rise until this battle’s won, my dignity’s become undone.

i can do it on my own, i’m willing to take the risk.. but i wont go, if this isn’t love then what is?

what if I lose my heart and fail the climb?  i won’t forgive me if i give up trying.

there will be times we’ll try and give it up. we’ll almost fall apart and burn the pieces and watch them turn to dust, but nothing will ever taint us.

will he still love me even when he’s free? or will he go back to the place where he will choose the poison over me?

he won’t go, he can’t do it on his own. if this ain’t love, then what is? he’s willing to take the risk, so I won’t go

Now my eyes are wide open. Now that every thing’s been stolen. See i’m not wasting any more time..gotta take back whats mine. What else am i suppose to do?
Here I am with my heart on the floor and my love out the door. But there it goes I got nothing to show for.

I told myself time and again, that i’ll never win. I told myeslf time and again. but i keep doing the same old things, when you thought i would change.

Here I am with my heart on the floor and my love out the door. But there it goes I got nothing to show for.

music always makes me work better. listening to kanye west’s new song and i can’t help but wonder if he’s being so egotistical he’s singing about himself?

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“Let’s have a toast for the douchebags,
Let’s have a toast for the assholes,
Let’s have a toast for the scumbags,
Every one of them that I know
Let’s have a toast to the jerkoffs
That’ll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can” -Runaway Kanye West

She’s got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I’d stare too long
I’d probably break down and cry
Sweet child o’ mine
She’s got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I’d hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by
Sweet love of mine
Where do we go now

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done and things that have not occurred yet
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect
I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I’m so proud to call you my boyfriend
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can’t apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that i put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do

I’m sorry

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happiness in a song