i feel so alone. that’s what it is. that’s why i was upset this morning as well. i feel alone. i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my friends. i miss it all. im missing out. my sister gets to go to dallas and see my mamma and i know how much fun and whatnot they’ll have and im jealous. im jealous of the people finished for the summer. im jealous of my friends in sweden just graduating and celebrating everything. friends in dallas laying out by the pool doing NOTHING, not a care in the world. why can’t i be there? instead im stuck here with two weeks left, with a lot of work to do and no motivation. none what so ever. i want to get out. i might actually just go to the park alone. get some air, a breather.

hanna’s gone after a lovely long weekend of having her here she left at 2 this morning. she’s home now and alright, but i feel lonely. it was nice having one of my best friends around. someone who knows me. understands how i work. but it is just the way it is, we don’t live in the same country. barely ever have! in a way i think we work better with distances as well, gives us time to miss eachother! and i miss you already baby girl.