went to the swedish shop yet again, can you tell i’m feeling christmas creeping and missing sweden?, with magnus after class today.

bought some more swedish food, i’ve spent way more money on food this week then i can afford already.. oh well, i need food to live no?

ate pyttipanna för dinner with an egg. reminded me of my grandma in sweden. everything reminds me of sweden nowadays!

i think things were easier last year because i had less work in uni so i had more free time to travel, haven’t travelled nearly as much this year.

i feel so alone. that’s what it is. that’s why i was upset this morning as well. i feel alone. i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my friends. i miss it all. im missing out. my sister gets to go to dallas and see my mamma and i know how much fun and whatnot they’ll have and im jealous. im jealous of the people finished for the summer. im jealous of my friends in sweden just graduating and celebrating everything. friends in dallas laying out by the pool doing NOTHING, not a care in the world. why can’t i be there? instead im stuck here with two weeks left, with a lot of work to do and no motivation. none what so ever. i want to get out. i might actually just go to the park alone. get some air, a breather.

not gunna lie i do miss having a tv, but some nights it’s quite nice to chill out with a good book as well. im currently finishing off one of stieg larsson’s books, in english. simon’s been studying, really well actually. and i’ve just been sat here reading, and i always get sucked into books. once i pop i can’t stop

so the last day without the boys was yesterday, granted i missed simon like no other but it was still nice to just be us. for the kitchen to stay clean. for the flat to be quite. for some girl time. we went to camden to soak up the lovely weather and i had a nice pub lunch. i know it doesn’t sound nice but there’s nothing like a fresh salad when the sun is shining outside. we had a few drinks and just spent the day lounging around. very nice! planned to go out for our last night but when we got in everyone was too tired and lazy, no regrets there! simon came and woke me up at 5 when id gone to bed at like 2-3. bet my breath was a nice welcome home present, ha!