You said you'd be there for me
In times of trouble when I need you and I'm down
And likewise you need friendship
It's from my side pure love but I see lately things have been changing
You have goals to achieve
But the roads you take are broad are heartless
That wants you make another way
You throw stones
Can you see that I am human I am breathing
But you don't give a damn
Can you feel my heart is beating
Can you see the pain you're causing
Can you feel my heart is beating
Can you see the pain you're causing
Blood blood blood...blood is rushing
And now the world is asleep
How will you ever wake her up when she is deep in her dreams, wishing
And yet so many die
And still we think that it is all about us
It's all about you
You sold your soul to the evil and the lust
And the passion and the money and you
See the same ones die, people hunger for decades
Suffer under civilized armedrobbers, modern slaveholders
Evaded, eliminated, erased, interrogated
Our tradition, our love for our fellow countrymen,
Our property, our resources - our pride
Can you feel my heart beating
No no no...you don't

well well well, went to lady gaga’s concert last night. it was her ‘monsters ball’ tour. two words, not impressed! not at all. it actually quite upset me! like i don’t think ill be able to listen to her music the same way again. she ruined one of my favorite songs and she had a break in between basically every song. like come on!! i honestly dont care if you change ten times. plus some of the outfits were horrid anyways. her face looked like a drag queen, her hair was yellow and horrifically curled as well. one of her dancers looked better than her! plus every time she took a break it ruined the mood in the o2, like people would start to get into it and then the break would ruin it, so i sat down the whole concert as well as everyone else. not the kind of concert i’m used to going to. i’d have to say it’s one of the worst concerts i’ve ever been to! at least me and my dad had a nice couple of drinks after

probably the last time ill go to dublin, at least to visit my daddy. anyways so im packing today and then going to the airport around lunchtime tomorrow! also i get to see lady gaga in concert this weekend! wondering if my dads going to enjoy it, ha! oh and the mens hockey in the olympics has some important games on saturday. sweden plays finland i think and canada plays the u.s. oh la la!

Sitting in the living room watching the british music awards alone, Alicia keys and jay z came on and wow. Seeing Alicia keys live would make me so happy, there’s so much meaning behind her music for me. Almost started crying to myself! Just remembering those hard days in the hospital where her lyrics got me through the tears. In the car to and from the hospital her music was there. Afterwards her music was still there. Now a year later her new album helps me yet again. Seeing her live would put a seal on my recovery. its gunna be two years soon enough in june. i wish i had someone to go to the concert with here in london though :/ emmelie, you up for a trip here?

i don’t know what it is about this song. whatever it is it makes me feel right. if im mad, it lets me let go of my frustration. if im upset, it makes me feel better. if im happy, it makes me even happier.

When the wind is blowing in your face, sometimes in life you don’t see straight. Wait for him, he will show. When your head is in a certain place nobody around to make you say stand strong and you will go. wait till you see my smile, wait till you see your smile. Don’t they love to see you down, kick you while you are on the ground. Don’t let any emtions show, people always make you late. Don’t let them get in your way, see they say things they don’t know. Wait till you see my smile. Hey, so don’t you look better now, everybody comes around. cause you don’t really need much. cause your stronger and your better and your ready for whatever.

Alicia Keys has a new album out. i want i want i want! her last album meant so much to me. got me through all those hard weekends sitting in the hospital. in between therapy and meals that’s all i had. listened to it every morning as well when my dad or mom drove me to the hospital when i was an outpatient. so happy im not in the same place anymore. a year and a half soon!

“I thought I should reply,” that’s what you said, ”And the parts of me are always with you.” that’s why it was so hard to forget. When we spoke on hazy nights so many months ago you said you will always worry but you had to let me go,
Sorry I’m trying to change my past can you give me just one more minute? How I’ve lost the time but I always seem to put you in it. However hard it was sometimes you seem to know the words and hum the lines to songs that make your heart so sore, maybe I should write one more. When you won’t just bring me back one time to hide so many truths then run from me and back to her and leave me like this fool. A fraud of love, that’s all you were for you are an emptiness, a person who seems to be void
P.S. Your girl

I thought I should reply so hear these words I say.. I know I will always worry when you so easily let me stray