packed and ready to go. just gunna wait for a bit wake simon up, get the last of my things from his. then i’m off to the airport.

takes an hour n a half to get there, and i’ve got to be there two hours before so if i leave around 1030 ill be good!

i don’t know if it’s because i’m nervous or just ridiculously hungry but i feel nauseous as hell! can’t seem to eat anything so i’ve been drinking cold soup. will have to get something to eat at the airport.

will try to sleep on the flight and then be in sweden! daddy’s picking me up so thats quite nice, no tubes or public transport when i land. always nice to get to be in a car, haha.

anyways, i’m going to tidy up my room a bit and then say goodbye to london!

i hate waking up and feeling sick. nauseous. knowing it’s cause i need to eat, but not wanting to. not having anything suitable for the mornings. makes a shitty start to the day, ruins my mood. i don’t want my day to start off with me being worried about food, i do it enough as it is.

still don’t feel great after eating. plus i’m tired as well now, that initial wake up energy has disappeared. could be because i most definitely do not want to go to uni today. we’re presenting our idea, and i can just see the mess ahead of me. and the long wait. i swear there is no such thing as organization or efficiency there.

really could not sleep this morning. woke up at 4. then 5. then 6. then 630. then dozed in and out of sleep until 8 when i decided laying in bed for another 30 min felt pointless. i hate waking up though and just feeling sick. sick sick sick. like nauseous, but it just wont go away. i know its cause i need food but its the last thing i want when im that nauseous! either way im sat here forcing myself to eat a bagel good morning?

so yesterday i slept a whole bunch. dad went to the gym and the store to get me some soup, honey, and cough drops, i slept. when he got home i ate some, not a whole bunch, took some cough medicine, sucked on a bunch of cough drops, and then we watched a movie. i fell asleep of course. then when the movie was over i went and got in bed and slept some more. then i woke up and felt very nauseous. dad was such a sweetheart, he got me a bucket and everything set up by my bed incase i needed it. i made it to the bathroom though, twice. i dont know why i threw up, either the cough drops and medicine on a kind of empty stomach wasnt good or i just dont know. either way my throat hurts today still, but i feel pretty okay. cant be sick tomorrow! moms coming yippiee. anyways back to watching tv, some two and a half men.. and thats about it! i love how i get sick right in time for the weekend. what a waste!

last night i stayed up until like 4 a.m. talking to jonas on skype always nice to hear a friendly voice. this might be taboo for you americans, but im gunna write about it anyways. i take birth control cause my cramps are deadly. so yesterday i put in a new birth control ring (i dont have to eat a pill everyday). so while talking to jonas i started feeling nauseous. i took some ginger capsules (helps against the nausea) and ate some food. then when i went to bed i was fine, woke up at 6 a.m. decided to take some more ginger cause i felt horrible, but i guess i didnt take them in time. ended up throwing them up, but im thinking some of it was released into my system. normally ill lay awake shaking from the nausea and sickness and throw up for hours on end, but this morning it was only once so im thinking ill get this under control soon. you learn for every month. at least i dont feel sick EVERYDAY like i used to now. im getting somewhere!