Jeffrey campbell.. do i even need to say more? his shoes are the best pair of heels i have EVER owned. want more so badly!

can’t decide to go for another pair of Lita’s or try something new this time… the ones with the spikes are to die for but not practical enough for me, there’s another version which are like fall boots and they’re to die for. but i found all of these on Nastygal

i know the summer is over but i’m still loving everything white. on my shopping list is a pair of white converse. and on the wish list.. a white iPhone, and one day a white iPad. (mom&dad.. black is okay too, so feel free to give me your phone or iPad over christmas )

i can’t help myself when it comes to american apparel, there’s always something i want. although their pictures on the website don’t always give their clothes justice.. i’ve found these two items very appealing

an adorable petticoat.. wear it with something over it or just on its own, it just looks amazing.

and a simple crop top tee which would be perfect for those warm summer days.. oh the list of things i want grows every day..

went downtown yesterday and just happened to stroll into the apple store.. and let’s just say i’m still in love. the two guys i was with weren’t too impressed and asked why would you need one? and obviously nobody NEEDS one, but the 2 million people who have already bought them obviously WANTED it. wants and not needs, that’ll make apple more money! anyways i love it. was so cool. the calendar on it, the email.. ah so nice. imagine not wanting to bring your computer to school.. and then you wanna read a book and take notes.. well IPAD can make that happen! i love it.

it’s taken me a long time to realize the difference. i used to need drugs. yeah i thought i did, but my life is fine without them. i then wanted them. i wanted the drugs so bad. i wanted that high. i wanted to feel good again. but after a while i then again realized i didn’t want or need them. i thought i needed you. i needed the happiness and the good feelings you brought me. just like another fucking drug. every day i’ve thought to myself about how you’ve always put me last. your needs come first. your family, granted that’s pretty obvious. your friends. everything. your shit comes before me. and after feeling so helpless and unloved so many times it’s got me thinking. i mean nothing. you would replace me in a heartbeat. you treat me like im dirt sometimes. i know im not always easy to deal with, but some things don’t need to be said or done, and it’s to the point where i can deal with things on my own. i have people who love me. i don’t need you. i don’t need your approval. i don’t need you to love me. cause even when you won’t be there for me.. they will. i’ll still be standing on my own two feet. i hope that scares you, because it should. if you even value me just the slightest bit you’d realize what you will be loosing.