so i’ve still got no internet at the new place which makes its impossible for me to blog unless i’m back at station court (like now).

alas i’m getting it sorted. i’ve got internet coming soonish, and then thinking about getting a pay as you go stick, only 10 pounds for a whole month.. not sure though, need to think it over.

so don’t fret too much i’ll get this up and running again shortly.

well well well, went to lady gaga’s concert last night. it was her ‘monsters ball’ tour. two words, not impressed! not at all. it actually quite upset me! like i don’t think ill be able to listen to her music the same way again. she ruined one of my favorite songs and she had a break in between basically every song. like come on!! i honestly dont care if you change ten times. plus some of the outfits were horrid anyways. her face looked like a drag queen, her hair was yellow and horrifically curled as well. one of her dancers looked better than her! plus every time she took a break it ruined the mood in the o2, like people would start to get into it and then the break would ruin it, so i sat down the whole concert as well as everyone else. not the kind of concert i’m used to going to. i’d have to say it’s one of the worst concerts i’ve ever been to! at least me and my dad had a nice couple of drinks after

so im at the hospital yet again. the doctors are talking about letting dad go home tomorrow! yep, so well see how that pans out. my stupid iphone stopped working yesterday for no reason what so ever. so now ive downloaded the newest version and tried everything, yet nothing works. so im a bit irritated. im thinking about going to o2 and just getting a new phone number. im sick of dealing with all this jailbreaking and unlocking business. anyways im wearing my american apparel bronze tulip skirt with a unisex long sleeved shirt from them too. still no word from them.. not surprising i guess?

some of the best songs of the night.. unbelievable. 

note.. not all are from dublin but hey gotta make do with what you can find!

last night at the concert i dont know why, but some songs were just so beautiful. i could really relate. not to the family portrait song, but i know emmelie loves it and i miss her so i couldnt stop thinking of her. it was so beautifully done. just pink a violin, and a dude on the piano. plus at the end she sang ‘carey, carey, carey’ just thought it was really sweet. during ‘Dont let me get me’ was when i had to hold back the tears. also just like a pill. those songs are me. ive dealt with it all. i really felt it. i remembered my past, the drugs, the bulimia, the depression, the messing everything up. 

Dont let me get me

Never win first place, I don’t support the team 
I can’t take direction, and my socks are never clean 
Teachers dated me, my parents hated me 
I was always in a fight cuz I can’t do nothin’ right 

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror 
I can’t take the person starin’ back at me 
I’m a hazard to myself 

Don’t let me get me 
I’m my own worst enemy 
Its bad when you annoy yourself 
So irritating 
Don’t wanna be my friend no more 
I wanna be somebody else 

I wanna be somebody else, yeah 

LA told me, “You’ll be a pop star, 
All you have to change is everything you are.” 
Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears 
She’s so pretty, that just ain’t me 

Doctor, doctor won’t you please prescribe somethin 
A day in the life of someone else? 
Cause I’m a hazard to myself 
Dont let me get me

Just like a pill 

I’m lyin’ here on the floor where you left me 
I think I took too much 
I’m crying here, what have you done? 
I thought it would be fun 

I can’t stay on your life support, there’s a shortage in the switch, 
I can’t stay on your morphine, cuz its making me itch 
I said I tried to call the nurse again but shes being a little bitch, 
I think I’ll get outta here, where I can 

Run just as fast as I can 
To the middle of nowhere 
To the middle of my frustrated fears 
And I swear you’re just like a pill 
Instead of makin’ me better, you keep makin’ me ill 
You keep makin’ me ill 

I haven’t moved from the spot where you left me 
This must be a bad trip 
All of the other pills, they were different 
Maybe I should get some help