the only place i think i’ll ever be able to find real friends is in sweden. people are just as fake here as they are in the states. i just don’t get it. life isn’t about getting shitfaced and then talking shit about people behind their backs. yeah i can talk shit too, but if someone asks me about it i’ll say it to their face as well. i don’t have a problem with that. i also don’t have a problem with anybody here it’s just that all the girls have at least found one person to chill with and what not and i just miss my panda. school hasn’t even started and im already thinking about looking into schools in sweden for next year. i just don’t know anymore. maybe im not strong enough for this city. feeling pretty damn depressed and oh look at that, nobody to talk to. knew this was a mistake. im cutting myself off from certain people. i know i shouldn’t but i can’t help it. being alone feels good sometimes. it also gets me in trouble other times. i just want everything to disappear. i dont want to be sick anymore.

me and jonas are going over to rebecca’s.. yay! i haven’t seen her in a while so that should be fun. i think we’re just going to chill at her apartment or find a party? either way i’m guessing there’s going to be alcohol involved.. again.

so i woke up around 10, pretty normal time i guess, got in the shower and ive realized that im letting my bangs grow out. its not that im tired of them, i really like them actually. its just that i dont have time or the money to cut them a thousand times this summer. plus when im in mallorca or texas i know how hot it gets and bangs on your forehead doesnt make things better.. so yes goodbye bangs, hello…. poof? who knows.. i always end up doing the same thing with my hair anyways. i also repainted my nails, got rid of the black.. although i must say it makes your nails look dirty as hell when you use nail polish remover for black nail polish.. eeeks.

i scrubbed my feet, and now theyre resting in plastic bags with olive oil. after this last week of walking around and dancing in high heels and what not i need it..

rebecca said it was a good idea to sleep with, but im trying it out now instead.. lets see how this goes

okay so i almost forgot to mention this. after a night at the pub or wherever we were we went to mcdonalds, naturally, ha! for a midnight snack. and were standing in line, clearly minding our own buisness. then when it was our turn to order this 30+ year old gets right in front of us. at first i was shocked like wtf? who does she think she is. so she turns around all in my face ´i was in line before you´, obviously not wanting to start anything i didnt answer. im guessing she could hear by the way jonas, rebecca, and i were talking that we thought it was rude and uncalled for. for christs sake your at a mcdonalds.. whats the hurry? anyways had she been in line before us, i would have said my fault, im sorry. and that wouldve been it. i mean where does this grown up get off thinking she can just do whatever the fuck she wants. either way we sit down, and then she ends up at a table near us with someone that i assume was her boyfriend. they start staring, giving us the finger, and then telling us to go back to our own country. like seriously? how old are you? we just sat there and tried to ignore them knowing i was not looking for a fight. so far ive only met nice people here in ireland but that was just uncalled for. so yeah this is what i wouldve liked to do to her..

so the first day they came we went up to the penthouse terrace to enjoy the weather

rebecca got me a hookah as a thank you for letting her stay with us. however unnecessary it was it was a good idea. hehe. mom and dad, dont freak. theres no nicotine, and no tobacco. really if you think about it its kind of silly, but its very chill to sit and smoke.

so we decided to be real tourists and take the dublin tour bus. me and jonas have already done it once, but you always miss something!

in the middle of everything it started pouring rain! so we of course went inside..

we then ended up at the zoo where we saw tons of cute and cool animals. the penguins look like their about to kiss or something, tooot!

me on jonas, a regular site with us hahah

me and rebecca messing around. how old would you guess we are?? haha

so the guests are showering and packing up their last things before leaving in an hour. what a week weve had, just have to say though time goes by too fast but its alright because ill see them in two weeks or so, no problemo eh? hehe. yep dad comes home on wednesday, and then hes back in the hospital on thursday. lets see how things pan out this time, surgery or no? lets hope he gets it done, its no fun being mentally prepared and then being shut down. anyways ill put up pictures from each day and let you guys know what weve been doing once im done cleaning. im amazed at how quickly this apartment gets dirty!

so todays my last day with my lovely guests. dear lord have we ate a whole bunch of junk food. good thing ill have nothing better than go to the gym next week time flies by too fast, but ive had a great time with jonas and rebecca here and i hope they didnt think i was too much of a bitchy host! anyways today we went downtown to get jonas new shoes. we stumbled upon a midsummer festival in temple bar area..

we then went to penneys were rebecca has shopped her little butt off, and jonas got new shoes. then we saw the night at the museum 2.. better than i thought it would be.

i just thought it was funny that so many people from other movies ive seen recently were in it. one guy from the hangover, 2 or 3 from superbad, ha! but yeah.. we just finished dinner which i made and tonight were gunna hang out and enjoy the last moments we have together hehe

so when rebecca and jonas landed we came home unpacked a bit, then went down to oceanic bar and then we continued to the temple bar area. pretty fun for a monday night. listened to some good live music and had tons of laughs. it was a good time. here are some random pictures..

me and rebecca outside of temple bar

dancing/singing to kings of leon

me and jonas

walking to burger king.. ha! suck an unhealthy midnight snack.