at least in the U.S. says Marie Claire, which i find interesting as women still don’t like to talk about it.

women don’t even talk about sex the same way men do. i don’t know if it’s because we’re uncomfortable, or because we’re more timid.

a new emerging trend seems to be female friendly porn. Simon and i saw a program about it in Stockholm over the summer.

it’s supposed to be more artistic, and sensual. the sensual bit i believe, women like different things. artistic? not so much.

either way i think it’s cool. women should be able to find porn that suits their needs as well.

did you know that a study done of 900 films over a four year period found that sex and nudity in movies did not boost box office sales!

i just can’t take it anymore.

i’ve been on birth control for at least 5 years now, not because of sex, but because my menstrual periods are terrible. pain, agony, sickness, headaches, backaches, just couldn’t deal with it.

i didn’t think my birth control made me gain weight. mostly because when i switched from brand to brand my weight stayed the same. however, now that i’ve started on yet another one, i’ve lost weight.

at first i was delighted, i hadn’t moved a muscle or anything and the weight just simply fell off me. now, not so much.

i guess it’s just my eating disorder trying to come out and play again. but it’s just so ridiculously frustrating. will i ever be happy? will my boobs ever be big enough? will my stomach be flat enough? will my butt be alright?  will my thighs be lean enough? will i EVER be good enough for myself?

i just wish i could be happy with my body and embrace it. but instead i loathe it. i hate certain parts and i fixate on them. i’m not comfortable with clothes on. i’m not comfortable naked. i’m just uncomfortable all the fucking time.

it’s the hardest thing i think i’ve had to deal with in a long time. gaining weight, it’s pretty obvious that i’m not gunna be estatic about it, but loosing weight and i’m even more upset.. i don’t understand.

i’m lost. i’m so lost, and i just hope that i don’t get lost with ED.

i dont really know where to start off with this one, and i don’t really know what my point is..

im reading a book called ‘girl with a one track mind, exposed.’ it’s good. it’s about a sex blogger, and as vivid as it is, it’s still an entertaining book.

to get to the point, there’s a chapter that deals with nude pictures. and as much as people like to deny it, people send them.

time and time again celebrities have been caught out sending nudes to their boyfriends, who usually end up being ex’s. to name a few rihanna, venessa hudgens, and megan fox. not to mention the people who aren’t famous.

now what i don’t understand is where it all goes wrong. if you’re stupid and send them to multiple people, especially ones you don’t know, then you’re asking for it.

if you happen to have them on your phone then it gets hacked, it’s technically not your fault.

however, the point the author wrote in the book was that no matter what these pictures will get out. is that really true?

now i find that worrying for all those idiots out there. not even that, what kind of exboyfriend’s decide that sending out their exgirlfriend’s nudes is a good idea for revenge? how low can you stoop?

nudes can ruin peoples lives.

i know this one girl i used to go to school with, she sent pictures of herself when she was about 14? a bit too early if you ask me (beside the point). either way these got out, there’s speculation as to how, but the whole school saw them. every one was talking about it. how would you feel?

i’d be petrified and so ridiculously hurt and angry.

how can some people be so stupid? do they not care? and how are some guys so careless?

starting cleaning up a bit in my room since there’s bits of paper everywhere, watercolors, color palette, just stuff everywhere from doing my work. i came across a magazine from a while back and started to go through it again and there was an article about female porn. it’s just a controversial subject but im bringing it up anyways. women tend to find porn very degrading, which honestly 99% of the time it is. so one woman decided to start a company where they make female porn, a bit more sensual and not so sexist. which all in all is a good idea. women are allowed to watch porn as well no? i was trying to find the article online to post but couldn’t find it, instead i came across a lot about relationships and porn. women and their boyfriends/husbands watching porn. honestly at the end of the day men are men. you can’t change them. they are obsessed with sex and will never stop doing what they want to do. but i do agree with a lot of the women i found posted comments online, it is detrimental to a relationship. how is a woman supposed to feel if she’s out for a couple of hours and her guy’s at home watching porn? he couldn’t wait? she’s not good enough? not skinny enough? doesn’t have a good enough body? doesn’t appeal to him as much? all these questions arise, cause women are women. women have feelings and also tend to make a big deal out of nothing. and im not speaking for all women, cause some chicks love it as well. some couples watch it together. but for me it is such a major turn-off that i cannot even begin to explain. a man watching porn when he’s got a girl is probably one of the most degrading things i can think of. it’s pathetic as well. granted if she’s away for a long time, but some of these men watch it all the time. leave their wives to cook dinner to watch porn. honestly i’d drop him like no tomorrow. im not saying there’s anything wrong with watching porn, on your own time of course, but some men should really consider their partners feelings.