i’ll openly admit it. i’m jealous. all of my friends in sweden are graduating right now and i feel like i never got to participate in a real graduation. i didn’t walk the stage in the states with all my friends cause i graduated in the summer a year earlier. i didn’t get to have a champagne breakfast or run out to all my friends and family like they do in sweden. i didn’t get a real graduation. i came home and all of the sudden i was done. can’t even remember seeing my diploma? all i’ve got is my transcripts, that’s my graduation. i know my parents got me a nice little balloon and a card, and they were proud of me. after all i did it a year earlier than expected, however it still doesn’t compare. sometimes i wonder if things would’ve been better if i would’ve stayed for another year. get more credits, work harder, get into a better university.. would everything have changed then? ah it’s funny how jealousy can take over sometimes, but the good thing is i’m mature enough to know when i’m jealous, and i can admit it. i don’t have to do what other people do and put others down and act like i’m better than other people cause i know that i’m not. jealousy is not a sin, if you know how to handle it.

jesus! okay so i was already feeling enough of the drama when i was in dallas, like how immature can people get really? “my dad drives a ferrari, what does you dad drive?” then i came back here and started reading some swedish blogs and these little kids need some slap therapy. like for real? youre going to sit there and blog about how you partied last night and put pictures up of yourself practically naked and making out with another girl.. how old are you? then theres the total opposite too.. look at me im so mature. hell at least i stand for what i am. sometimes i can be mature yes, and other times im still a kid. nothing wrong with that is it? im so sick of these girls being like i hate her, shes so ugly , blah blah blah. jealousy is stupid when you act like that. theres PLENTY of times when im jealous but that doesnt mean i talk shit about someone behind their back or start being a bitch. ill honestly tell someone, “wow… that shirt is amazing i wish i could have one!” instead of saying to someone, “ew she looks hideous in that shirt”. theres no point, its just bad karma. the same goes with my boyfriend, i hate the fact that hes in Sweden looking good in the clothes i picked out and hanging out with friends and girls… even though i know he wouldnt do a single thing to hurt me im jealous. im jealous cause i cant be with him, is that even bad? jealousy isnt a sin unless you make it one. so seriously people grow up, and move on with your stupid obsession with drama.