back in London now. arrived somewhat early this morning, even though my flight was an hour and a half delayed! first there were 11 people on standby, then when we finally got on the plane there was a random security check. so all the bags they had just put in had to be taken out and put back in again. then the owners of the bags who didn’t pass the security check had to get off the plane and ohhh a waste of my time honestly. usually i have no problem flying. quite used to it, dont get too jeglagged anymore either. however this time was different. couldnt sleep. couldnt sit still. then i got sick and felt like i would throw up any minute. not fun. however simon was at the airport waiting for me and then helped me get my bag back here and now im just struggling to stay awake! had to sneak a nap in today as well.. oops. needed it though i was like a walking zombie. let me just say i already miss the sanitary apartment my mother lives in. this place is a pig stein and its gross. home sweet home until september!

yet again. woke up with a headache today. couldn’t fall asleep last night either. kept thinking. about everything yet nothing. just need to stop over-analyzing what’s going on and just be. have some things to do today, should go to the gym later.. let’s see if i can get my ass into gear.

so today i was in bed all day with a major migraine. not fun at all. i felt like i had something coming on last night but i ignored it and went to bed. didn’t sleep super well and then when i tried to get up this morning i just felt nauseous. sounds and light made it worse so i spent the day in bed. simon was lovely enough to make me something to eat when i finally got up and then i’ve just been working on sat practice stuff since im re-taking the test in january! anyways i’ve been inside all day so i want to go out and do something tonight even though it’s pouring rain. what to do? suggestions?

ive got a long day ahead of me. got up at 730 this morning. all on my own as well. no calls needed. however i think staying awake all day will be the problem. actually no, ill be busy so i cant really just sleep then! plus i dont need that much sleep anyways, its just something depression wants. anyways going to uni for a full day, using all the supplies i bought yesterday! clay and plaster.. this could get messy! we’ll see what happens.

i wanted to sleep longer. lay in bed. relax. and do absolutely nothing. its sort of raining outside and really windy. no thank you to walking all the way to the doctor’s office today :/ also dad’s making me go to the gym with him. too tired to move. i know once im there though ill be fine. i just cant help but love chilling in bed

i slept like a princess tonight. i haven’t had a nights sleep like that in ages. slept through the whole night!! woke up and looked outside, its sunny day! ah its amazing to just lay in bed and be able to look out over the entire city of dublin. luxury! today’s gunna be a good day going to have breakfast and then go for a walk with pappa! its going to be so hard to leave here on tuesday :/ oh well, enjoy it while it lasts!

so im gunna paint my nails and then go to bed. i love sleeping. i blame it all on my sister. i was never this much of a sleeper until she taught me to chill out and relax. now i can sleep for ages! all you emmelie, i blame it all on you

so we’re going out tonight to some really ‘posh’ place as they call it here. first time ive ever showered and actually put effort into getting ready before going out here in london! this should be interesting. apparently weve got a table with free magnum vodka bottles and whatnot plus we’re on the guest list… we’ll see if everyone gets in first eh? ill be in bed all day tomorrow so pictures to come on sunday maybe!

so happy to finally be starting uni! i now have a reason to get out of bed and get dressed im off to class so ill update when i get home tonight. the schedules are so confusing i have no clue where to be or when!