i don’t know why but i ‘stumbled’ across this page and seeing the pictures of näckrosen and solna centrum i felt a little pang in my heart.

i didn’t think i missed sweden, but thinking about this summer and my family and everything i feel really lonely all of the sudden. a bit lost as to where ‘home’ really is.

good thing pappa and emmelie are coming to see me next week, good ol’ family lovin.

went around the city a bit more yesterday.

simon and i met up with my sister and we had a coffee with her at the top of kulturhuset in the sun! beautiful view.

then we wandered over to the city hall and had a look around. once again, beautiful!

we were meant to have lunch in the old city for from shellfish and whatnot, but of course they closed 20 minutes before we got there!!

so we opted for a not so great caesar salad, but we made up for it with some newly made ice cream cones and marvelous ice cream!

then we saw the royal palace, simon once again wasn’t happy with me being a tourist and making him take pictures.. ha!

we went to leif’s to watch the football, yay for USA and England!! and had some yummy rhubarb and raspberry pie

after we took a walk around the lakes here in råsunda, and enjoyed some more of the lovely weather!

every day i realize how lucky i am. lucky to have such an amazing family. an amazing sister.

today after dinner i came back to town in order to stay at my sister’s. she’s been an angel (no surprise there) and let me and simon borrow her apartment for the week!

just packed her things and left, trusting me with everything. as soon as she left i felt lonely, ha!

to be fair, i’m old enough now to take care of things on my own, and be on my own. it’s quite nice, but it feels weird.

i feel like i kicked my sister out! thank you emmelie for being the best, and of course robert for having emmelie this week

so i went and talked to a lady this morning, and decided to try a mini-pill birth control for a month.

its only got one hormone so it’s supposed to stop me from feeling nauseous! we’ll see what happens..

then i walked to the pharmacy and picked up my prescription. it’s so nice out here today!

walked back from the pharmacy to emmelie’s apartment, and now i’m sat here waiting for leif to come around at 1..!

after finally finding the place i was supposed to be at, i find out from the very rude old lady at the desk that it’s not open house because of their summer schedule.

so i left, can’t be asked with such rude people for no reason.

either way i’ve got an appointment to talk about getting a hormone spiral put in tomorrow morning at 1030!

so yesterday my sister called me and ta-da! i had plans all of the sudden.

took the subway into town and walked around a bit and shopped, im bad i know, but a sale is a sale! ill put pictures up later.

then when my sister had finished work i went to her office, nice and central. we went for ‘afterwork’ with a couple of her collegues.

they were nice people and i quite liked drinking and eating for free! went to sturehof first which is right in the middle of stureplan. nice place, good food. quite expensive, but hey i wasn’t paying!

we then moved to another bar and drank a mojito royale.. a mojito with champagne in it! i think i’m in love. my two favorite drinks in one!

after that we decided to move on home since the place was so stiff! we were the only ones dancing, but i was loving it anywayss.

so nice to be back with my sister, words can’t explain the things we get up to together

a picture from the kitchen here in råsunda.. and i gotta say that woman is an inspiration.

is arriving tomorrow. yep. my sister. the only person in the whole wide world i would trust my life with. i love her more than words will EVER be able to describe. shes been there through it ALL, from day one. never once has she doubted me or pushed me aside. shes made me her number one. shes been the best sister a girl could EVER ask for. i dont think it ever gets any better than this. shes the most beautiful and caring person i know. shes understanding and understands that people make mistakes. she also knows that im not perfect and loves me for the person i am. shes what got me through it all. i love her more than anything, i cant even explain how much my sister means to me. its not a normal relationship, i dont think i ever remember getting in a fight with her. ive done her wrong, yet shes ALWAYS treated me with respect and given me the benefit of the doubt. shes supported me with everything ive done and shes helped me not only to find myself but to start my life on a new path. shes the reason why i wake up every morning wanting to be better. wanting to do good. wanting to grow and become a better person. shes the reason i no longer need to turn to bulimia. shes the reason i will never ever again set my foot inside of a treatment center. shes all the help i need to survive. shes my best friend. my mentor. my role model. my idol. my family. my sister. my everything. words cant even begin to cover my feelings for this woman! 

anyways, Emmelie is coming tomorrow afternoon. were going to get her at the airport with the rental car and then go out to dinner. ive also decided that we are going out out. i need to wear some heels and shes the only one who can handle it. mom and dad are old and slow. loves it. finally the family together, under one roof. i cant lie, ive missed living with my sister. she taught me a lot in the few months we were together. being on the same side of the earth as her is enough to keep me from ever moving back to the u.s.