so tomorrow don’t expect an update until afternoon/night. i’ve managed to waste a whole day today. i went to find paper, yet again. this fucking paper is ruining everything. anyways, enough anger for today. it’s a bank holiday, for god knows what reason. so no, the shops weren’t open. so tomorrow morning i’m going to buy that god damned paper. mount spray. mount my drawings. and then throw my portfolio in my course leader’s fucking face (not literally). i just wanna be finished. i wanna turn it in and never have to think about it again. i will fail, i’m setting myself up for failure. and you know what? you learn from your mistakes. yes this year was a mistake and i’ve learned that london metropolitan university is shit, and architecture is not for me. done. after i realized the shops were closed Simon who came along to help left me to go to a friends birthday, and as soon as i switched tubes i realized that my key was locked in his room and his room was locked. so yep. no gym. no clothes. no work. no computer. no nothing. thankfully jaz was around and he let me in the gates, and then i’ve been sat in irish’s flat watching tv until now. so tomorrow starts a very busy and stressful day. early start to get my portfolio together. so ready to put my hands up and walk away, but it’s one more day and honestly it’ll be shit but handing work in is better than handing no work in.

Simon’s trying to get his uni work done and im sat on his bed messing around with my blog. i’ve decided to become more active with my blog again. realized that it makes me happy! but yeah so i tried to take a picture from the bed while leaning back.. nearly fell off the bed! at least simon got a laugh out of it, and i’ve got a blurry picture..

oh yeah, i put some pictures up. figured i’d try to do it more often. either way if you scroll your mouse over photo gallery links come up and you click on them. since i cant figure out how to get it under the actual tab, and mistakenly added another one.. oops!

ive showered. gotten all comfy. animal planet is on the tv. and im about to get a snack. and then its study time. going to finish my SAT practice test. yipee. haha. no not really but its necessary! and it could be way worse.. i could be drawing lines like i do at uni! hahahaha.

been spending my day studying for my SAT’s coming up in January. it’s going to be a lot harder than i thought. been out of school for so long, forgot a lot. mostly the geometry stuff though, so hopefully ill catch up in time! anyways back to my practice tests now.. yay.. haha

i’m in dublin now, only to unpack.. repack.. and leave again tomorrow morning.

how in the world im going to make everything fit into my luggage? eeeeks. oh well i’ve downsized once before im sure i can do it again. im gunna chill for a bit then unpack and repack. yaaay.

wow. i really am productive when im alone. i got all the laundry done and ive managed to read two books in one day. maybe i should get a single when i study? seems like ill be WAY more productive that way! anyways dinner tonight was a veggie burger. looking out the windows all day im throughly suprised, its been like DEAD all day. did everyone go out last night? if so, well it wouldnt suprise me. im thinking i might call someone in sweden tonight, watch tv, give myself a manicure (if i can sit still long enough), and enjoy the loneliness. dad gets back tomorrow, evening i think? and then on wednesday i believe we are off to london. going to check out london metropolitan uni, since i didnt really feel like spending all that money on richmond. although if i do get late acceptance to trinity, i think its the best option. not the cheapest but definitely the best fit and most recognized school. plus im starting to fall in love with dublin, and hey.. living in this amazing apartment a while longer, ill survive! well i suppose its time to hang out the clothes to dry, such a good little house.. daughter? hehe. enjoy your monday evening!

so yesterday i get this email from Richmond. theyre no longer offering the course i wanted to take, engineering of course. oh and yeah, they dont have architecture either. so im thinking shit, im screwed. however im going to start off at Richmond for the first two years (maybe?) and take the basics for a bachelors degree and some engineering then most likely transfer. who knows, i might be able to get into some schools if i actually send my grades! oh and then to sweeten the deal today i got another email i got a dean’s scholarship. 4,500 pound per year. not bad. thats like 6,600 dollars. better than nothing! so yeah, as long as my grades are above a 3.0 im good to go. so well see how this goes. oh and also cambridge is cheaper than richmond. explain that please? so im thinking if i work hard and get my grades up at richmond i can apply to cambridge and hopefully some success will come. but im not getting my hopes up.. yet.