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Bon Voyage

My — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 05:00:02 +0000

Emmelie and her boyfriend Robert are off to texas today. As much as i’m happy for them that they get a long three week vacation, i’m seething with jealousy. So hope you two enjoy your trip to Vegas with our brother, eat loads of good food, and of course shop

Rain rain go AWAY

My — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 15:38:44 +0000

its actually pouring it down outside. i haven’t seen rain this bad since i was living in texas. put one finger outside the window and your whole body is wet (not really but you get what i mean).

so now i’m sat here, debating weather i should actually do my hair for dinner or screw it, whilst playing around with my new digital photo frame

It’s true

My — Fri, 02 Jul 2010 15:16:23 +0000

i know its a while away but, i just can’t stop thinking about it. i’m going to dallas, during christmas break, first for a couple of days and then MEXICO!!!! playa del carmen which is a bit away from cancun.

unlike last christmas though, its not just me and the parents. another two families are coming along, including HANNA!!!

6 months of waiting, study study study so i can tan tan tan.

Tied up

My — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 21:24:56 +0000

went to hard rock cafe here in stockholm with my sister and her boyfriend.

ate lovely chicken fajitas, (even if they’re not as good as they are in texas).

then dad showed up right in time for the USA vs. England football game. oh boy oh boy, what a beginning. i thought USA had lost it right away but they put up a good fight, and they deserved that tie. bet you ‘footy’ fans in england are ragging right now, haha!

Jealous

My — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 09:17:11 +0000

i’ll openly admit it. i’m jealous. all of my friends in sweden are graduating right now and i feel like i never got to participate in a real graduation. i didn’t walk the stage in the states with all my friends cause i graduated in the summer a year earlier. i didn’t get to have a champagne breakfast or run out to all my friends and family like they do in sweden. i didn’t get a real graduation. i came home and all of the sudden i was done. can’t even remember seeing my diploma? all i’ve got is my transcripts, that’s my graduation. i know my parents got me a nice little balloon and a card, and they were proud of me. after all i did it a year earlier than expected, however it still doesn’t compare. sometimes i wonder if things would’ve been better if i would’ve stayed for another year. get more credits, work harder, get into a better university.. would everything have changed then? ah it’s funny how jealousy can take over sometimes, but the good thing is i’m mature enough to know when i’m jealous, and i can admit it. i don’t have to do what other people do and put others down and act like i’m better than other people cause i know that i’m not. jealousy is not a sin, if you know how to handle it.

Two many places

My — Sat, 22 May 2010 00:21:24 +0000

that’s where i want to be at the moment. my life in confusing. i want to be in so many places at once. i can’t believe i booked a ticket to sweden for just a week, really only a week? i wanna go to dallas so bad, but that’s not happening. i want to go on vacation, but that’s not happening. i just wanna be around people who i love, and that’s not happening.

Missing everything

My — Thu, 20 May 2010 15:41:35 +0000

i feel so alone. that’s what it is. that’s why i was upset this morning as well. i feel alone. i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my friends. i miss it all. im missing out. my sister gets to go to dallas and see my mamma and i know how much fun and whatnot they’ll have and im jealous. im jealous of the people finished for the summer. im jealous of my friends in sweden just graduating and celebrating everything. friends in dallas laying out by the pool doing NOTHING, not a care in the world. why can’t i be there? instead im stuck here with two weeks left, with a lot of work to do and no motivation. none what so ever. i want to get out. i might actually just go to the park alone. get some air, a breather.

Dinner

My — Sun, 16 May 2010 20:12:51 +0000

so even though the rain was coming down simon and i decided to go out for dinner. nowhere expensive of course, just the one and only CHIPOTLE! must say at first look i wasn’t impressed. mainly cause im used to there being a line around the entire building in plano, but also because the rice wasn’t the same color, the pico de gallo didn’t have any tomatoes in it.. but after eating it, i have to say it tastes the same! and boy oh boy was i happy afterwards! full as well. i’ve got to say a corona really does the trick when eating mexican food, of course i could never have done that in the states the burritos aren’t anywhere near the same size as they are in the states, but duh. either way simon ate all of his and i didn’t hear a single complaint. so i will most likely be going back there again!

Losing myself

My — Wed, 12 May 2010 15:52:47 +0000

losing it all. i feel like i’ve worked so hard. so ridiculously hard to get my life back on track. i’ve done everything in my power to find happiness. to be content. to stop leaning on bulimia and drugs to fulfill my days. and i’ve done all of this just for my life to fall back apart. i feel like i’ve made some of the worst mistakes in my life this past year. i’ve been so happy, at a shit university, in a ghetto neighborhood. i’ve been happy. i’ve been happy without the material things. i’ve just been me, and happy. i’m afraid for it all to go away. what happens if i don’t pass? what am i gunna do next year? i don’t want to go to school in sweden, and im pretty sure i can’t get in anyways. i don’t wanna live in dallas, cause i have a strong feeling i’ll fall back into old patterns. it’s too easy to get sucked into that world. yet it’s the only place i think i can go to school. i don’t want it. i don’t want to live there. i don’t want to live in sweden. i don’t want to be unhappy. i don’t want to fail. i always don’t want to waste another year of my life doing nothing. i want a degree. i want a real job. i want my own home. i want my own life. i don’t want to depend on others. i don’t want to be in this situation. i’m scared. i’m more scared than i’ve ever been in my life. i don’t know if i can do this. and i don’t know what will happen after.. but hey.. guess it’s my own fault for being such an idiot. shouldn’t have ever even thought of architecture. shouldn’t have gone to london metropolitan university. shouldn’t have waited a year to start university either. i shouldn’t have started using drugs. i shouldn’t have had bulimia. shouldn’t have been me. maybe everything would’ve sorted itself out then.

Chipotle

My — Mon, 10 May 2010 19:57:40 +0000

so so so so so so so so so so so so sso so so so so sos os os os sof os jdhfghorf so excited!! just realized today that there is indead a chipotle in LONDON!!! guess where i’m going for dinner tomorrow? yeeeeees sir cannot wait. been jumping up and down smiling like a kid in a candy store and simon just doesn’t understand. tomorrow though he will…