Simon and i went to Selfridges on Monday. Bought some 30 pieces of chocolate from artisan du chocolat for Jules and his parents as a thank you for letting us stay in their flat.

after all you can’t show up empty handed, and what a luxury to be able to stay somewhere for free all on our own. generosity!

words cannot explain how grateful i am for my parents. thanks to them i’ve got a lovely studio off of marylebone rd.

its got it’s own bathroom, kitchen, and a little patio even! and in 7 days i get to move in. im sure there will be a lot of cleaning and fixing up but isn’t that the best thing about having your own place? doing things your way.

then in a month i start university at regent’s and it’s gunna be good. i’ll make it good.

GOOD-BYE STATION COURT, I WONT MISS YA!

now you can somewhat see my nails! okay so tomorrow ive got some things to do.. or lets say this weekend. i want to find some cute things for my place in London! i see all these pictures up on facebook from people moving into their dorms and it dawned on me.. i have NOTHING decorative.. oh wait yes, a peace flag. yep thats it. and an alarm clock. how homey of me. so yes im going to be on the look out for anything cheap. also i wanna find a good crafts store, i need to send out thank-you cards from my birthday! and i think i might spice up my bank thing, my sister did it and well lets just say she has good taste oh and then i also have to get my BP shoes and Chanel purse from the shoe hospital! anybody else notice how scatterbrained i am at the moment? lets hope my money lasts…eeeks!

somethings i received from American Apparel. im over the moon with happiness. i cant wait until August when i get to wear them. ill be sure to put up the pictures then thank you again American Apparel!

so i get a call from my parents when im sitting on the bus on my way down to skåne to meet jonas.. it was mom and dad on speaker phone telling me a package arrived from American Apparel today! exciting i know. they sent me a legalize gay tshirt which im dying to wear, gold shorts, white zipper tights, and a maroon jacket. nice nice nice!! only bad thing is that i wont get to wear or see the clothes untill august, poor me? anyways i just wanted to say thank you american apparel.

i wouldnt survive a day in my life without my sister, emmelie. shes the best sister ever. i know i say this over and over again but its true. without her i dont think i wouldve stayed strong throughout my battle with bulimia and drugs. she helped me in so many ways. and recently my trip to sweden was a bit of a wake up call. emmelie let me stay with her, even though im not much of a help around the house. she practically fixed all the paperwork for my student loan, and helped me get my ass in gear. sometimes you need someone to push you, and thats just what i needed. its time to grow up and well, i just dont want to. i want to live this comfortable life for as long as i can, always someone looking after me, having my back, taking care of me. im scared that things will turn sour in london, but im more determined now than ever to make it. after all ive got my sister to guide me on how she made it im extremely proud of her and happy to be able to say shes my hero. in my eyes shes the most beautiful woman on this earth. love you sis, thanks a bunch for everything.

mamma, i know i havent always been the ideal daughter. in fact ive been a mess that you and dad had to clean up, i was a brat, i had attitude, i treated you with disrespect yet you were always there. every time i messed things up you were there to ask my why i did it and yeah at the time i hated you for it, but without you i never wouldve gotten to the point in my life that im at today. i miss having girls day with you. getting our nails done, shopping, or even just being together. those days dont exist anymore and its hard on the family when we are all so far apart. i love you mom, always will. i may not always show it, and were sure to get in arguments again. thank you for sticking up for me, for being there when no one else wouldve dared to be. thanks for being a good mother. and most of all thank you for giving me all the opportunities in life that ive gotten. Jag älskar dig mamma.

so i was just looking at my stats for the blog. thinking that since i havent updated lately they would be pretty horrendous, however they werent even that bad. i even saw some interesting things. i got some hits from pretty cool places. so thank you for reading from (in no particular order) malaysia, bulgaria, germany, canada, denmark, U.K., mexico, india, netherlands, peru, russia, ireland, australia, china, france, spain, and of course my mains.. sweden and the U.S.A. if theres a country your reading from and you feel that i left you out, LET ME KNOW! i love finding out that people actually read this. its fun for me knowing that  this might not only be helping me. so thanks for reading

i feel like i need to say this. thank you all for reading. on monday i had a bunch of readers, and its gone slightly down since then but thats alright. im not worried. people think im obsessed with this blog and the truth is, i am. i love it. its like my own personal therapist at hand whenever i need it. it helps to let go of everything on my mind and stuff i just wanna let people know about. ive got readers (maybe not everyday) from a bunch of different countries, and i just want to thank you guys for reading! it means a lot to me that someone besides my family is interested in what i have to say. so yeah, a bunch of thanks you. now ill stop being so mushy but first tell me.. whos reading? where are you from? why are you reading? 

124 views so far today. well only two hours left. so yeah thanks for reading babes!