if you read the news or live in england you’ve probably heard about the tottenham riots. riots which i think are unnecessary, uncalled for, and STUPID. the riots are the minority ruining it for the majority. there’s no need for the riots and it’s just damaging their own area.

they’ve set buildings on fire, cars, ruined shops, stolen loads of goods and you know what i think? let them carry on, let them burn houses and cars to crisps but then leave it for them to deal with as well.

why should the police and the rest of the community suffer for some stupid people thinking it’s fun to destroy other people’s property?

the worst part is i used to live on the high road where everything kicked off.. this jewellery shop was destroyed, and i used to walk past it every time i went to the gym a year or so ago.

such a shame, and so pointless as well

back at station court today again. i hate this area more and more every time i come back. can’t walk down the road without some guy whistling or saying some stupid remark, news flash it won’t work!

anyways, just came around to use the internet, hehe. then hopefully when simon’s done in turnpike lane with the guys (getting a house!) we’re gunna head to ikea. i neeeeeed a desk!

sometimes i wanna sit down. throw a hissy fit. cry. kick and scream. cuss people out. just all together tell people to fuck off. but i dont. instead i try my best to be polite and smile and walk away. let’s just say sometimes my anger gets the best of me. not today though. you can tell your back in london. the service is shit. tottenham is shit. idiots left and right. one person was in front of me in line at the grocery store yet she still managed to hold the line up for AGES. putting one item on at a time. asking how much it was after each one. pissed me off so much i needed to write this to cool down. i wanna hanna to come now!!

went to our student union bar wednesday night. can’t say it was one of the better nights i’ve had there. it made me feel really uncomfortable and lost. like i don’t know where i belong anymore. i don’t think this is it for me. at the same time moving out so soon would be a huge step. id need a job and whatnot first. aja, either way.. it was an ‘auction night’. they were bidding out cheerleaders and basketball players and it was just trashy (to say the least). some of the ‘cheerleaders’ (if you can even call them that) were running around in shorts.. no not shorts boyshorts. the kind of ‘shorts’ i wear as underwear. the kind nobody sees. this girl had half of her ass hanging out. like youve got it flaunt it whatever, but honestly i dont really need to see it. what pisses me off the most though is girls like them who flirt around, show off their goods, fucking hell. your leading the guys on just by standing their. all you want is attention but then if you get more you complain. lay in the bed youve made sweetheart. then on the bus home this little kid, probably like 10 years old, starting getting into it with an older girl, and then another guy joined in, and then another girl, and then another guy. it just got to the point where if things were to escalate id be stuck in a very unlucky place, so i told simon i was uncomfortable and we moved downstairs on the bus. i dont want to put up with this ghetto shit anymore. i dont care if you think your some kind of hard ass, gangster, or drug dealer. truth is in my eyes your a failure. i may not be a ‘hard working’ person myself at the moment but at least im trying. at least ive got goals and a future ahead of me.