There’s a swedish blogger who is rather rich and famous, she’s gained weight in the last couple of years it’s pretty obvious yet she’s happy with who she is (at least she says so). She’s curvy and enjoys food, there’s nothing wrong with that. i think it’s important to remember that there’s nothing wrong with being skinny either.
me.. im on the curvy side and even if i enjoy food, i don’t enjoy my body. but i know that there are those people out there who don’t have curves, and that can’t be the easiest battle either.
i think it’s brave to embrace your own body and i just wish i could be happy with mine!
Categories: Blogg Taggar: anorexia, body, body image, bulimia, eating disorder, fat, food, gain, skinny, ugly, weight
just had a nice lunch with Simon, went to the shop and my total for all of our food came to 1 pound.. made me happy. i’ve been spending way to much money recently. you want to know what the worst part of it all is? the money has only been spent on FOOD! went out with natasha on friday and spent TWO pounds on drinks.. and guess how much i spent on mcdonalds on the way home? three times as much. god im pathetic. need to sort my life out. i wish eating wasn’t necessary to live sometimes.
Categories: Blogg Taggar: alcohol, body image, boyfriend, drinks, eating, eating disorder, ex, fat, food, friend, lunch, mcdonalds, money, natasha, simon, ugly
im struggling to keep sane. i dont know if it is because im stressed. i dont know if its because of uni or if its because of my body. but either way i hate mirrors. i hate my body. i hate the way i look. i hate the way my stomach creates a roll that sits on top of my pants when i sit down. i hate the way my boobs look in every single last bra i own. i hate the way my armpits fold. i hate how big my thighs have become. i hate how my legs and tummy jiggle when i walk.
i hate the way i feel about myself.
i want to wake up in the morning and not have my first thought be able how much weight ive gained in the last couple of months.
i want to get ready for my lectures and be happy with how i look. i want to be happy.
i hate having this cloud following me around, because i can’t get rid of it. i may not show it, but every minute of the day i think about food, and what it will do to my body. i dont want to be back in this place. it makes me unhappy and confused. why am i here?
so over christmas i’m going to work out. im going to get fit again, i want to walk up a flight of stairs and not feel out of breath. i want to look in the mirror and see toned muscles. i just want to be able to tolerate my body again. i want to eat healthy, and i want to be able to eat without hating myself every bite of the way.
i just want to be okay with what i look like.
Categories: Blogg Taggar: anorexia, body, body image, bulimia, digusted, disgusting, eating disorder, fat, food, gain, healthy, horrible, stomach, thighs, ugly, unhappu, unhappy, weight, work out
just been going through a tough time recently. everything just seems to be falling apart. i feel like doing a britney spears, shave my hair off, gain loads of weight, and just in general lose it. all my clothes feel like rags ive picked out of the garbage, my hair feels like it is fried and just doesnt look good no matter what i do, my body hates me and i hate it, everything just feels wrong. three more weeks and then i can work on getting myself back together, or maybe even go find myself again.
Categories: Blogg Taggar: anorexia, body image, body weight, britney spears, bulimia, clothes, depressed, depression, eating disorder, fashion, go find yourself, hair, shopping, ugly, unhappy, weight
sat trying to finish up my paper.. and i’m hungry somehow. maybe hungry isn’t the right word.. im craving something sweet and unhealthy and a skinny cow ice cream sandwhich right now would hit the spot!
just at simon’s. he’s sat playing COD and i’ve managed to stuff my face full of a whole bag of chips and dill dip with julmust! aah heavenly..
until your stomach starts to hurt and you feel ill. not so heavenly anymore..
Categories: Blogg Taggar: boyfriend, bulimia, call of duty, chips, fat, hungry, julmust, nasty, simon, stuffed, svenskt, ugly, unhealthy
for me those two words just don’t go hand in hand.
i don’t understand how somebody who has say… a million pounds in the bank, can be ugly. there’s so many tools out there and if you can afford them WHY don’t you use them?
i’ve always thought it’s easier for rich people to look good and it is!
look at all the famous people, are they ugly? no.
because they’ve got the money.
they can afford to spend 1000 pounds on a pair of heels, and then another 10,000 on some jeans. then there’s the make up and you can hire someone to teach you to put make up on. there’s personal trainers. nail salons. hair salons. personal shoppers. the list just goes on and on!
if i were rich i might not be gorgeous but i’d at least have the clothes, the body, the nails, and the hair to look the part.
Categories: Blogg Taggar: clothes, fashion, gorgeous, hair, money, nails, pretty, salon, shopping, trainer, ugly, working out
