it’s a weird situation. i guess money is always difficult. i just have never felt so helpless. wanting something, but not wanting it at the same time. realizing how much an education is going to cost you. living expenses. realizing you’ll be paying off a loan for the rest of your life. wondering if you’ll be happy. wondering if its worth it. wondering if you’re making the right choices.

i don’t want to wonder anymore. i don’t wanna regret any decisions. i don’t wanna be unhappy.

i want it to work out.

so i’ve gotten a lot done today. finished my coursework for one of my modules, i hope it’s at least good enough for a pass. they didn’t really give us a lot of work to do so i had to just figure some things out. so now i’m thinking a new episode of the pacific and bed? gym early tomorrow then uni and more coursework!