Here’s a few pictures from my day trip with Simon (who’s so lovely for taking me everywhere) to Newcastle & Durham!

Went to see where my sister went to school

My lovely Simon

In Durham

Durham Cathedral

dragged Simon along to see a flat with me today and wow. if any of the other flat’s are like the one i saw today i’ll be a happy girl. small kitchen, small bathroom. pretty dirty, but a  good scrubbing will clear all of that. in a lovely little area. also it’s got it’s own patio! awesome. i’m not sure how i’m going to handle it, but i’m guessing i’ve got to hold off on getting a place for a while. i’ll be gone all june and some of july, so maybe august would be better. plus then i don’t have to pay double rent, seems pretty pointless! but it was a ten minute walk to my university, and so central it took us like 15 to get to oxford street. i want i want i want to move now!

done. finished. finito. färdig. it’s finally fucking over. the elation and happiness running through my veins is intense. wish somebody could be with me to celebrate the fact that i did it. i made it through this year. i’ve made it yet again. i’ve finished. granted i may not pass but who the fuck cares? i’m done. i never have to set foot on london metropolitan university campus ever again if i don’t want to. I’m no longer forced to deal with the nonsense they call an education. it’s ridiculous, but i feel like jumping up and down and cry and just sit here and smile to myself, because no matter how shit or how horrible this year has been it doesn’t matter anymore. i’m done. next year i get to start over. new university. new people, new friends. new subject. new place to live. yet the same amazing city. so fuck you london met and all the shit you brought with you cause i’m over you!

so tomorrow don’t expect an update until afternoon/night. i’ve managed to waste a whole day today. i went to find paper, yet again. this fucking paper is ruining everything. anyways, enough anger for today. it’s a bank holiday, for god knows what reason. so no, the shops weren’t open. so tomorrow morning i’m going to buy that god damned paper. mount spray. mount my drawings. and then throw my portfolio in my course leader’s fucking face (not literally). i just wanna be finished. i wanna turn it in and never have to think about it again. i will fail, i’m setting myself up for failure. and you know what? you learn from your mistakes. yes this year was a mistake and i’ve learned that london metropolitan university is shit, and architecture is not for me. done. after i realized the shops were closed Simon who came along to help left me to go to a friends birthday, and as soon as i switched tubes i realized that my key was locked in his room and his room was locked. so yep. no gym. no clothes. no work. no computer. no nothing. thankfully jaz was around and he let me in the gates, and then i’ve been sat in irish’s flat watching tv until now. so tomorrow starts a very busy and stressful day. early start to get my portfolio together. so ready to put my hands up and walk away, but it’s one more day and honestly it’ll be shit but handing work in is better than handing no work in.

off to buy paper to mount my drawings on for my portfolio turn in. will probably fail, but i couldn’t care less anymore. as long as i turn it in and get it done with it’s over. never again. wearing a corset from topshop, skirt from american apparel, and sweater from Gap.

still don’t feel great after eating. plus i’m tired as well now, that initial wake up energy has disappeared. could be because i most definitely do not want to go to uni today. we’re presenting our idea, and i can just see the mess ahead of me. and the long wait. i swear there is no such thing as organization or efficiency there.