left behind some of the most amazing people in Sweden when i moved to Dublin with my daddy. had a lovely house party at jonas’ thanks to his mommy! said goodbye to all my friends and got ready to move!

moved in with my dad in Dublin, Ireland. never loved an apartment so much in my life. went through a lot in dublin. found myself while my dad was working. had some amazing nights out as well

two of the most amazing people ive ever been lucky enough to have in my life came to dublin for an insane week of shopping, touristing, and most importantly drinking!

then i had one of the busiest summer of my life. back and forth. going here and there. sweden, dublin, spain, dallas!

had an amazing 18th birthday as well! oh the lovely people i got to share it with <3

then after a lovely summer it was time to move.. again. this time i went to london, where i’ve met some amazing people, and some not so amazing. had my share of ups and downs in london. been extremely happy and loved every second of life and then ive been extremely upset and just wanted to leave. leave it all behind. i wouldnt change a thing though. some of the best things this year happened to me in london and i cant wait to see what next year brings!

then i went for a lovely, but cold, weekend up north with simon. had fun making snow angels and getting pelted with snow. weird yeah? would’ve been hard leaving if it werent for mexico!

had a great vacation with my parents in puerto vallarta mexico! enjoyed the sun, good food, and good drinks and now last but not least.. spending new years in dallas with my family and amazing friends! if you wouldve asked me in 2008 if i would trade london for dallas i wouldve said hell no. now coming back i miss it so much, i feel like i might end up back here sometime in the near future! HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

we ended up going to the galleria instead! i got a lovely down jacket from tommy hilfiger. love love love it! wearing it today since it might snow, in texas!! crazy stuff. then after i went out with ito. went to blaynes apartment, then andrew and chris’ house, then d’s house. then home! didn’t even realize after a while what time it was. so good to be back with friends t

leaving in half an hour to go to Heathrow and catch my plane to DALLAS! get to see my mamma and daddy tonight and most likely some of my friends as well. plus i get to eat texmex! ill be even fatter when i get back :/ oh well ill worry about that then. could barely sleep tonight i’ve been so excited!

tonight im back off to London.. or seven sisters :/ alone. yuck. scared to walk from the tube to the halls, ill make a run for it!! then i’ve got some packing to do and then tomorrow morning/afternoon im off to heathrow for my flight to dallas!! first time i think i’ve ever gotten a direct flight from europe to dallas. see my mamma n pappa, and then eat some yummy food. then its repacking for mexico and off for a warm christmas! although i have been enjoying playing in the snow here, hehe.

im applying to different universities for next year because i am deeply disappointed in the one that im studying at now. i feel like im wasting a year on bullshit. learning to draw a line for two hours isnt what i paid for. i might as well have taken a night class in sweden and built my own portfolio, couldnt have been that hard. yet now im spending a whole year of my life on it. dont even know if this is what i want anymore. i wanna drop out and start over somewhere new. but im not going to give up yet. im gunna pull through this, no matter how much i hate it and then go harder next year at a better school. so a recommendation.. NEVER study at London Metropolitan University. none of my friends are satisfied either. its just a waste. so on the list for next year, if im lucky.. Cambridge, Oxford (both of those are a possible N O), Queen Mary University of London, University College London. 4 different engineering courses and one architecture. then i might even look into schools in sweden and the states.. why not?

so i thought i’d do a little recap of my summer. i know ive been kind of lousy at updating but ive been busy! so heres a little reminder of how amazing my summer of 2009 was

it started with Jonas & Rebecca coming to Dublin. It was one of the best weeks of my life! even if i was a bit  of an emotional disaster (i stopped taking my prozac for a while).

the week after was one of the most challenging weeks, when my dad entered the hospital for open heart surgery

then i travelled to Sweden for about a month. first stop? Skåne with Jonas and his family

then back to Stockholm to welcome my panda bear Ito to Sweden

I turned 18, finally legal! had a big birthday party at jonas’ house, and went out with my sister!

took a week in Mallorca, Spain with my boys. the beach and the bar sums it up!

then i went to texas for two weeks. with my sister, jonas, and mom! met old friends, and did some major shopping!

and thats not all! my summers not over yet hanna’s coming on thursday night!

okay so does anyone else just think this is pure ridiculous?! people are actually getting upset about Michelle Obama wearing shorts, and they werent even that short! like common people, its the 21st century!

Sarah Palin probably wouldve gone out in booty shorts so be happy, and shut your mouths. i think the first lady has the right to wear shorts on a family vacation to the grand canyon. do any of you know how hot it is there?!?

so now its pouring rain. well it is ireland after all. its supposed to be like this for the next couple of days and right now i just feel like crawling in bed and never getting up again. i dont know what it is. maybe its because its that time of the month but i cant seem to keep my feelings in check tonight. where did all my friends go? i feel like i have none left. ive got nothing. nobody to talk to, nobody to hang out with on a saturday night. wow my life is just fanfuckingtastic. i have a boyfriend whos in a different country, whos too busy to even text me. my dads asleep. my sisters grown up, and im sure she doesnt wanna listen to my whining anymore. my moms on vacation. my brother is.. well nobody knows. my friends are in different countries and im wondering if traveling is really worth it? i mean yeah dallas wasnt the same when i was there but then again im not the same person. i left them all and i cant see them being excited about me throwing my new life in their faces. it cant be that great to still be stuck in the states dealing with the bullshit drama and drugs and whatnot. i just feel like i need somebody to  hug. maybe the whole death thing is finally getting to me. i dont wanna loose the people i still have. ive lost too much and ive given too much up. or maybe its the fact that im realizing summers over. im alone, and im not going to be surrounded by people i love anymore. its time to get serious. time to start over. sometimes i wanna fall back to what i used to be, but i cant. i will never allow myself to turn back to that hell. fuck. i have no clue whats wrong with me. am i hopeless?

just give me a chance to get me right…

going to dinner before emmelie left!

yummy homemade edamame

wittle baby hanging out with us while watching a movie

second time jetskiing

haha a new camaro parked next to us

shiner bock, texas beer! the orange one was my favorite

so yesterday i bought more undies (from Victorias Secret), im obsessed i know but these are too cute and too cheap to say no to, plus im throwing a bunch of my old ones away. today i bought a new sweater for me to wear in cold and rainy london! also i got a incase sleeve for my baby macbook. very important that she doesnt get any scratches on her! hehe.

undies from Victoria’s Secret PINK

my new Obey sweater from Metropark

laptop case from the Apple store