i miss plano. i miss my friends. i miss my mamma. i miss my pup. i miss the simple lifestyle. the cars. the shopping. the food. everything. i don’t think i could move back, but i sure as hell wouldn’t mind visiting right now. seeing pictures from all my friends on easter break hanging out with each other. knowing i belong there. knowing i fit in. i hate to say it but i know that even if i work a lot until the summer i wont afford a trip to dallas.. i’ll have to wait another year. things i don’t want to believe. i want that choking heat. the burning sun. the air conditioned malls. the spicy food. the gooey queso. all of it. bring me to it!

never thought about it before. i know i used to be a spoiled little bitch but that’s another subject. sitting here packed and ready for the airport, i feel like i dont wanna leave. these are my people. its where i grew up. its where i fit in. people dont judge you here. the girls i have here arent immature, trashy, or backstabbing. my guys will stick up for me no matter what. they respect me, and most importantly they have respect for themselves. ive weeded out bad ones and im so not up for doing it again in london. its hard when your hearts in 4 different places at once. i love being here, but nothing compares to london. i can be a snobby little bitch and complain about shit to my friends and its alright. cause we’ve all grown up in west plano. we’ve all been through so much stupid shit together. we’ve watched friends go to rehab, be sent to hospitals, sent to boarding schools. we’ve watched them get arrested on various occasions. but it truly is a bubble of its own. families have money, lawyers on call. no one ever really feels the affects of breaking the law. its ridiculous really, but i still love it. the lifestyle here is comparable to beverly hills yet ive traded it for a ‘poor’ life london (although rich in so many ways.). ask me why? because i wanted to live. i know that i wouldnt change a single thing ive done. ive learned more about myself and my friends then i ever thought possible, and if worst comes to worst in london its good to know i always have a home to come back to if needed.