was supposed to meet hanna downtown in an hour, but no noise from her so i’m guessing that’s off. we were going to meet up with bella later for a quick glass of wine after she finished work, maybe it’ll just be me and bella now! we’ll see what happens.

it’s been out and in the open for a while but i’ve just forgotten about it. it wasn’t until today when i was looking into applying for a job at american apparel (yes, again.) that it came to my mind to write about it.

apparently the dress code at american apparel stores and offices is a bit.. how should i put this.. strict? considering the company in itself makes such laid back clothes and expresses a very chilled atmosphere in it’s stores.

i always found american apparel a store where i could buy clothes to express myself. to show my style through their clothes. to show who i am. not who they want me to be.

through this new ‘dress code,’ as they like to call it, i’ve become very upset with american apparel. they’ve been such an honest company in the past. this really makes me rethink it all.

i might look around for a used camera like the one above in september or later in the summer when i’ve got the cash (from working hopefully!). these cameras take such good pictures, they just turn out gorgeous every time. granted my camera takes good pictures as well but they’re nothing compared to the ones you can get with a “real” camera. of course you wouldn’t take the camera above clubbing or anything like that but for pictures for the blog and whatnot it’d be really cool. we’ll see what happens, maybe i’ll get one, maybe not.

it’s beautiful out today and i’ve got to go to vapiano to sign some papers and then wander the streets of london with jules and simon… oh life is wonderful. just wondering how the fuck i’m going to work for two weeks and then say i’m off to sweden.. eeeeks.

I got the job at Vapiano and all of the sudden i’m not so excited about it anymore. Means i have to stop being lazy and actually get off my bum and do something. HOWEVER… money money money. that’s all i’ve gotta think about, money!

well did the trial shift this morning and it seems ridiculously easy. take payments, and give out cards. easy! only thing is i’m not really a 100% keen on working full-time but a job is a job, and then once i get it i can just keep looking… well if i get it. they said they’d give me a call.. so we’ll see!

off i go! wish me luck at my interview!

up early today! went to bed early last night so hopefully i wont die halfway through the day! i’m going to uni to drop off work for one of my modules and then i’m off to my interview and trial shift at Vapiano! once again i hate early mornings cause my stomach hates food then.. :/ but i’ve got a granola bar in my bag so i should be fine!

going in to oxford street to get a pair of black flats with simon since i need a pair for my interview tomorrow and i figured i could find some cheap ones and they’ll probably come to use later on anyways! then we’re meeting jules at the park again, i got burnt yesterday pictures up later!

i feel so alone. that’s what it is. that’s why i was upset this morning as well. i feel alone. i miss my parents. i miss my sister. i miss my friends. i miss it all. im missing out. my sister gets to go to dallas and see my mamma and i know how much fun and whatnot they’ll have and im jealous. im jealous of the people finished for the summer. im jealous of my friends in sweden just graduating and celebrating everything. friends in dallas laying out by the pool doing NOTHING, not a care in the world. why can’t i be there? instead im stuck here with two weeks left, with a lot of work to do and no motivation. none what so ever. i want to get out. i might actually just go to the park alone. get some air, a breather.