why can’t things just stay on track? why can’t my life be simple? and for god’s sake why can’t i just get this shit over with?

got an email from my sister today. CSN (swedish student loan company) needs an acceptance letter from my university saying that i’m unconditionally accepted.. wouldn’t be a problem, except for the fact that i’m on a conditional offer, AND apparently CSN doesn’t give out loans then.

so my question is where the fuck am i gunna get the money to pay for my tuition AND rent. i can’t just pull if out of my ass now can i?

so i would just like to say a big fucking thank you to CSN for being retarded and not understanding that when i send in my grades from last year (yes i passed) and meeting the requirements of my conditional offer means i’ve got a sure place at uni.

shit like this puts me off so much. if it doesn’t work out this year then i just can’t be bothered anymore. when the fuck am i going to graduate university if i have to wait yet another year? where am i gunna get a job that pays and saves for next year? fed up to the point where i might as well just get a fucking job and screw school.

was supposed to meet hanna downtown in an hour, but no noise from her so i’m guessing that’s off. we were going to meet up with bella later for a quick glass of wine after she finished work, maybe it’ll just be me and bella now! we’ll see what happens.

it’s been out and in the open for a while but i’ve just forgotten about it. it wasn’t until today when i was looking into applying for a job at american apparel (yes, again.) that it came to my mind to write about it.

apparently the dress code at american apparel stores and offices is a bit.. how should i put this.. strict? considering the company in itself makes such laid back clothes and expresses a very chilled atmosphere in it’s stores.

i always found american apparel a store where i could buy clothes to express myself. to show my style through their clothes. to show who i am. not who they want me to be.

through this new ‘dress code,’ as they like to call it, i’ve become very upset with american apparel. they’ve been such an honest company in the past. this really makes me rethink it all.

i might look around for a used camera like the one above in september or later in the summer when i’ve got the cash (from working hopefully!). these cameras take such good pictures, they just turn out gorgeous every time. granted my camera takes good pictures as well but they’re nothing compared to the ones you can get with a “real” camera. of course you wouldn’t take the camera above clubbing or anything like that but for pictures for the blog and whatnot it’d be really cool. we’ll see what happens, maybe i’ll get one, maybe not.

off i go! wish me luck at my interview!

going in to oxford street to get a pair of black flats with simon since i need a pair for my interview tomorrow and i figured i could find some cheap ones and they’ll probably come to use later on anyways! then we’re meeting jules at the park again, i got burnt yesterday pictures up later!